Another year has gone by and so many things have happened. So since another year has passed I wanted to make a year in review post and it is very fitting because this will be by 100th post on this blog. It is crazy that I have written so much on this little blog and that people actually read it, it's kinda really cool. It has been a long 12 months of ups and downs and spins and circles. I will not lie that 2016 was a shitty year. I got cancer and I lost most of my ability to adventure and explore this year.
My senior year was torn to shreds and my physical and mental being was slowly deteriorating, but I couldn't do anything about it. I really do not want this post to be sad and depressing because not every part of 2016 was bad. Once my treatments were over a lot of good things happened such as; my sister got married, I met shane dawson, I went off to school, I turned 18, and I graduated high school. I did have good things happen to me, but all in all 2016 was a crazy year.
Enough about that. Last year I posted a year in review and made a list of resolutions and I am here to reflect to see if I succeed....
#1 resolution was to learn how to control my temper. Honestly I think I failed. Once I got sick I kinda couldn't help my emotions so I am keeping this as a resolution for 2017. Were gonna give it another shot.
#2 resolution was to write more and with that I think I succeed. I wrote down almost everyday so I could express my emotions and feelings. I even have a journal that has a prompt for everyday so you can write to that prompt, it has been nice. I am going to keep writing in 2017 and possibly try to create a new thing of my own. My friend Anna and I are trying to come up with a way we can have our own magazine and that will be my writing outlook this year and I can't wait to write more on this blog as well as other things.
#3 resolution was to give back and I think other people did better at it than I did because I was so sick. All of the people in my life stopped theirs to give back to me when I needed it so now it's time to return the favor in 2017.
#4 resolution was to stress less and I think I failed at this one the most. Honestly, since I started college stress has been my middle name from living on my own to not knowing what the hell I wanna do in the future, school has been crazy. This goal will be pursued again and again until I can be better at controlling it.
And lastly #5 resolution was to live a little more and I think I'm deciding to officially make this an ongoing goal, it will never end and probably never be reached. Every year I will try to live a little more by being spontaneous and more outgoing and to always be up for an adventure. I will never not have this as a new goal for my life. You should do this too.
Even though my 2016 wasn't the best year I hope that it was for you. I remember in my 2015 post I said every year should be your best year and I think that's still true. 2016 for me ended on a higher note than it started and I'm okay with that. I am over what happened to me, it happened and now I am moving on. Yes it will affect me from years to come, but my life will get better, YOUR life will get better. I promise you and I'm promising myself.
2016 was kind of a shitty year for the world and that's okay because that is what a new year is for, starting over and getting a fresh start. I hope that is what you all try to do in 2017, I know that is what I'll be doing.
So for 2017 I am only adding one new resolution to my ongoing ones and it is KEEP THE FAITH. I need to believe in myself and my abilities and to always have hope in the new year. I am going in with a new light and I am so excited.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE.. I love you all and I hope you find what you are looking for in the new year. 2017 is gonna be a good one I can feel it. xoxo
Friday, December 30, 2016
Thursday, December 22, 2016
Book Nook
Hey guys whats up. It is almost a new year so I am trying to read as much as I can before this years reading challenge is over and 2017s begins!So today's book is "The New Guy (and other senior year distractions)" by Amy Spalding.
I have to say this book was the definition of cheesy, possibly too cheesy. I'm not saying I did not enjoy the plot or the book in general, but it wasn't the best book I've read this year. The plot is basically about a girl named Jules who is a overachiever that cares about grades, her school newspaper, and getting into Brown. However, it all gets screwed up when a new "famous" boy comes into town, Alex Powell. Also a rival to her schools newspaper and editor position means war so it is crazy hs drama book.
Honestly, I hated the main character Jules. She was whiny, annoying, and never believed in herself. She cared too much about the wrong things and she is one of those people in high school that needs everything to be perfect and to go her way. She also overthink-ed EVERYTHING about her life which drove me nuts. I however loved her Alex and I liked thatcher and carlos who are also working in the school's newspaper. I don't know I feel like the less the author talked about the character the more I liked you cause I could make up my own personality for them.
One thing I really did like about this book is that is was about senior year which is ironic cause I just graduated because I felt the same way Jules did about college. Jules really wanted to get into Brown and i really wanted to get into OU. I worked my ass of to get where I am today and in that way I related entirely.
I don't know if it was the way the author wrote the book or what but it seemed like some chapters were dumbed down for young people to understand. It definitely was not one of my favorites and for the first time in awhile I don't know if i would ever recommend it. Honestly, you truly aren't missing out on much with this one just because it is so cheesy.
It just sucks because I saw so much potential I just think it is for a younger audience. However, didn't stop me from liking some quotes from the book :)
Favorite Quotes: "Just that if within the span of days you can feel so honest with someone, you can see how bigger things might be possible too."
"I'm excited about college and I'm excited about my future, but only recently did I start thinking about how all of that means my present has to end."
"When someone breaks your heart, something about that person physically should be required to change."
"When you hear about war heroes, they don't emerge victorious from easily won battles."
"High school is a crazy time to age us so much."
"Who would leave someone they loved?"
"Boys should disappear when they hurt you."
I have to say this book was the definition of cheesy, possibly too cheesy. I'm not saying I did not enjoy the plot or the book in general, but it wasn't the best book I've read this year. The plot is basically about a girl named Jules who is a overachiever that cares about grades, her school newspaper, and getting into Brown. However, it all gets screwed up when a new "famous" boy comes into town, Alex Powell. Also a rival to her schools newspaper and editor position means war so it is crazy hs drama book.
Honestly, I hated the main character Jules. She was whiny, annoying, and never believed in herself. She cared too much about the wrong things and she is one of those people in high school that needs everything to be perfect and to go her way. She also overthink-ed EVERYTHING about her life which drove me nuts. I however loved her Alex and I liked thatcher and carlos who are also working in the school's newspaper. I don't know I feel like the less the author talked about the character the more I liked you cause I could make up my own personality for them.
One thing I really did like about this book is that is was about senior year which is ironic cause I just graduated because I felt the same way Jules did about college. Jules really wanted to get into Brown and i really wanted to get into OU. I worked my ass of to get where I am today and in that way I related entirely.
I don't know if it was the way the author wrote the book or what but it seemed like some chapters were dumbed down for young people to understand. It definitely was not one of my favorites and for the first time in awhile I don't know if i would ever recommend it. Honestly, you truly aren't missing out on much with this one just because it is so cheesy.
It just sucks because I saw so much potential I just think it is for a younger audience. However, didn't stop me from liking some quotes from the book :)
Favorite Quotes: "Just that if within the span of days you can feel so honest with someone, you can see how bigger things might be possible too."
"I'm excited about college and I'm excited about my future, but only recently did I start thinking about how all of that means my present has to end."
"When someone breaks your heart, something about that person physically should be required to change."
"When you hear about war heroes, they don't emerge victorious from easily won battles."
"High school is a crazy time to age us so much."
"Who would leave someone they loved?"
"Boys should disappear when they hurt you."
Thursday, December 15, 2016
Book Nook
NEW BOOK ALERT. This one is a comedy. It is comedian, actress, and all around good human Mindy Kaling's book "Why Not Me?" This is her second novel, but I have not read the first one.
This one though it is super funny and lovely. She is truly a funny person. I watched her play Kelly on the office and thought nothing of it until I started reading and fell in love. THE OFFICE SPOILER ALERT: Did you know she wrote the episode where Jim and Pam got married? I was so surprised in a good way. I thought that episode was so good and i loved that i could find out she wrote it by reading her book. That is one thing I adored about her novel, that she gave BTS about the show and other projects she has done.
Me personally my favorite chapters were the ones about Will. Will is a guy who worked with the president and I thought the way she talked about him was funny and sweet at the same time. Also my other favorite part is when she had a section of just emails of her being a latin teacher throwing a party, those were HILARIOUS.
Overall, her book made me like her more as a writer, comedian, and overall human being. She taught me many things whilst reading and I will carry them with me and I loved that.
I recommend this book for all you funny people who think you're comedy is actually funny when reality Mindy's is probably way better. Just wait... go read it.
Favorite Quotes: "What's so wrong with effort, anyway? It means you care."
"Haters are just more people paying attention to you."
"And as everyone knows, the best kind of laughter is laughter born of a shared memory."
"It was heartbreaking to be loved and left."
"but sometimes you like the idea of someone so much, you just want to do whatever it takes to make it work."
"What I'm asking for is not that much. I just want a boyfriend who is sweet and trustworthy. That's it."
"It is sad when your hopes and your abilities do not line up."
"If you've got it, flaunt it. And if you don't got it? Flaunt it. 'Cause what are we even doing here if we're not flaunting it?"
"What if I have nothing to say?"
"Because confidence is like respect; you have to earn it."
P.S Mindy if you read this if you want to come speak at my OU commencement ceremony in 2020 I'll put in a good word for you. :)
This one though it is super funny and lovely. She is truly a funny person. I watched her play Kelly on the office and thought nothing of it until I started reading and fell in love. THE OFFICE SPOILER ALERT: Did you know she wrote the episode where Jim and Pam got married? I was so surprised in a good way. I thought that episode was so good and i loved that i could find out she wrote it by reading her book. That is one thing I adored about her novel, that she gave BTS about the show and other projects she has done.
Me personally my favorite chapters were the ones about Will. Will is a guy who worked with the president and I thought the way she talked about him was funny and sweet at the same time. Also my other favorite part is when she had a section of just emails of her being a latin teacher throwing a party, those were HILARIOUS.
Overall, her book made me like her more as a writer, comedian, and overall human being. She taught me many things whilst reading and I will carry them with me and I loved that.
I recommend this book for all you funny people who think you're comedy is actually funny when reality Mindy's is probably way better. Just wait... go read it.
Favorite Quotes: "What's so wrong with effort, anyway? It means you care."
"Haters are just more people paying attention to you."
"And as everyone knows, the best kind of laughter is laughter born of a shared memory."
"It was heartbreaking to be loved and left."
"but sometimes you like the idea of someone so much, you just want to do whatever it takes to make it work."
"What I'm asking for is not that much. I just want a boyfriend who is sweet and trustworthy. That's it."
"It is sad when your hopes and your abilities do not line up."
"If you've got it, flaunt it. And if you don't got it? Flaunt it. 'Cause what are we even doing here if we're not flaunting it?"
"What if I have nothing to say?"
"Because confidence is like respect; you have to earn it."
P.S Mindy if you read this if you want to come speak at my OU commencement ceremony in 2020 I'll put in a good word for you. :)
Saturday, December 3, 2016
An Open Letter to my Best Friend
Dear best friend,
As I sit here and write this I keep wondering how I got so lucky to get you as my best friend. There has been a lot of people in my life that haven't stayed around but you always have. You don't understand how much I appreciate you and your friendship.
You are filled with so much joy and love that it immediately is spread to everyone you meet. You have a smile that lights up a room & a heart too big for your tiny little body. You are a child of God that was brought to this earth to only do good things. You give strength to so many people including me. I'd be so lucky to become half the person you are.
You have stayed by me for some time now. 14 years is a really long time. You have seen me at my worst and been with me at my best. From early middle school days, to hospital beds, to cheering on the sidelines, you were always there. You believed in me when I didn't believe in myself. You loved me even when it was difficult. You held me when I cried and you listened to me when I just needed a friend. But most importantly, you never stopped being my best friend. You never gave up on me even when I was stubborn or being an idiot. You stuck around for 14 years.
You know me like the back of a hand. You know what I like and what I hate. You know how to make me feel better and put a smile on my face. You know when I need a shoulder to cry on or a friend to laugh with. You know my terrible sense of humor with hints of sarcasm and sass. You laugh at my stupid jokes and my idiotic side bars. You know me better than I know myself.
You have filled my last 14 years with complete and utter joy and beauty. You have given me memories I will never forget and will tell to my children one day. You have given me more love and care than any other friend I've ever come across. I know that as life goes on I won't see you as often but I know when I see you it'll be like nothing has changed. We will just pick things up where they were left.
No one can replace a person like you. You are a one of a kind human being that is a beautifully special woman and I'm just the lucky gal that got you as a friend. You will always be my best friend. I love you.
xoxo
As I sit here and write this I keep wondering how I got so lucky to get you as my best friend. There has been a lot of people in my life that haven't stayed around but you always have. You don't understand how much I appreciate you and your friendship.
You are filled with so much joy and love that it immediately is spread to everyone you meet. You have a smile that lights up a room & a heart too big for your tiny little body. You are a child of God that was brought to this earth to only do good things. You give strength to so many people including me. I'd be so lucky to become half the person you are.
You have stayed by me for some time now. 14 years is a really long time. You have seen me at my worst and been with me at my best. From early middle school days, to hospital beds, to cheering on the sidelines, you were always there. You believed in me when I didn't believe in myself. You loved me even when it was difficult. You held me when I cried and you listened to me when I just needed a friend. But most importantly, you never stopped being my best friend. You never gave up on me even when I was stubborn or being an idiot. You stuck around for 14 years.
You know me like the back of a hand. You know what I like and what I hate. You know how to make me feel better and put a smile on my face. You know when I need a shoulder to cry on or a friend to laugh with. You know my terrible sense of humor with hints of sarcasm and sass. You laugh at my stupid jokes and my idiotic side bars. You know me better than I know myself.
You have filled my last 14 years with complete and utter joy and beauty. You have given me memories I will never forget and will tell to my children one day. You have given me more love and care than any other friend I've ever come across. I know that as life goes on I won't see you as often but I know when I see you it'll be like nothing has changed. We will just pick things up where they were left.
No one can replace a person like you. You are a one of a kind human being that is a beautifully special woman and I'm just the lucky gal that got you as a friend. You will always be my best friend. I love you.
xoxo
Thursday, December 1, 2016
Book Nook
Hey guys this next book that I'm gonna talk about is moving up on my favorites list. Honest to God, I could not put it down. I really loved it. It is called "Everland" by Wendy Spinale. The best way to describe it would be a twisted version of Peter Pan.
It is about a destructive captain named HOOK who bombs London and destroys what is left of it called "Everland." This virus called Hologia has spread and Hook stays in everland with his soldiers to try to find the cure because everyone is dying from it. So there are 3 kids: Gwen, Johanna, and Mikey and how they need to survive. Johanna gets kidnapped by the soldiers and HOOK and so Gwen needs to save her. So Pete and Bella find Gwen and help her out by giving them a place to live, The Lost City and help her try to save her sister.
I know that summary may have been sloppy but you need to trust me that the book is sooooo good. It has suspense, adventure, and beautiful relationships. I could not put the book down, I swear I read about 100+ pages in one sitting. Everyone needs to go to their local bookstore and pick it up.
The funny thing is that I probably would have never filtered toward this type of book in barnes and noble on my own, but I got this in a package for my birthday called OwlCrate. My friend signed me up for me and it is a monthly themed book package. The theme I got was dystopian and I thought I was screwed because they're not my favorite types, but I WAS WRONG. This book was amazing and has slowly moved up to my top 10 list. And that is not something to ignore.
Favorite Character: It is a tie between Gwen and Pete. Not only are they intertwined but they both have personality characteristics that I love. Gwen because she is brave and courageous and strong. Pete because he is sarcastic and loving and caring and also brave. These are qualities I hope to have one day and carry throughout my whole life.
Favorite Quotes: "The truth is much too painful."
"Survival becomes instinct and they lose what makes them, I don't know -- kids."
"A beauty that lies deeper than her appearance."
"Some things are worth risking everything for."
"It takes heart and strength, overcoming tragedy..."
"You don't have to see someone to know they're pretty. She could be uglier than a croc and still be pretty. She's nice, she smells of vanilla, and her voice is soothing. I think she's beautiful."
"I always thought the world couldn't hurt me if I was a machine."
"To die will be an awfully big adventure."
It is about a destructive captain named HOOK who bombs London and destroys what is left of it called "Everland." This virus called Hologia has spread and Hook stays in everland with his soldiers to try to find the cure because everyone is dying from it. So there are 3 kids: Gwen, Johanna, and Mikey and how they need to survive. Johanna gets kidnapped by the soldiers and HOOK and so Gwen needs to save her. So Pete and Bella find Gwen and help her out by giving them a place to live, The Lost City and help her try to save her sister.
I know that summary may have been sloppy but you need to trust me that the book is sooooo good. It has suspense, adventure, and beautiful relationships. I could not put the book down, I swear I read about 100+ pages in one sitting. Everyone needs to go to their local bookstore and pick it up.
The funny thing is that I probably would have never filtered toward this type of book in barnes and noble on my own, but I got this in a package for my birthday called OwlCrate. My friend signed me up for me and it is a monthly themed book package. The theme I got was dystopian and I thought I was screwed because they're not my favorite types, but I WAS WRONG. This book was amazing and has slowly moved up to my top 10 list. And that is not something to ignore.
Favorite Character: It is a tie between Gwen and Pete. Not only are they intertwined but they both have personality characteristics that I love. Gwen because she is brave and courageous and strong. Pete because he is sarcastic and loving and caring and also brave. These are qualities I hope to have one day and carry throughout my whole life.
Favorite Quotes: "The truth is much too painful."
"Survival becomes instinct and they lose what makes them, I don't know -- kids."
"A beauty that lies deeper than her appearance."
"Some things are worth risking everything for."
"It takes heart and strength, overcoming tragedy..."
"You don't have to see someone to know they're pretty. She could be uglier than a croc and still be pretty. She's nice, she smells of vanilla, and her voice is soothing. I think she's beautiful."
"I always thought the world couldn't hurt me if I was a machine."
"To die will be an awfully big adventure."
Sunday, November 20, 2016
Please Help Me Tell My Story
I had cancer this past year and as an end of the year celebration I want to tell my story fully, almost documentary style. I really want to tell what happened to me and ask my family and friends to tell their perspectives. I want people to know that they aren't alone and that you should never give up.
I really want people to hear my voice. I am very passionate about film, I love it very much and that is one of the main reasons I want to do it. I want this video to be almost like an interview with friends and family who are willing to speak to this issue and that went through it with me and who faced the experience first hand.
I know it may bring up bad times but this video isn't to reminisce it is to share the tribulations we all had to endure to inspire anyone who may stumble upon it. I want it to be spread by everyone and it is my goal to do this by my one year anniversary of my diagnosis, January 28th because everything will have come full circle by then.
It is important to me that people hear my story and understand that everything will be okay in the end and if it is not okay, then it is not the end.
If you are willing to be in this video and answer questions and just talk openly in front of a camera please let me know. I already have some people in mind I want in it and I am hoping you are willing to help me spread this message.
Thank you and I love you all xoxo,
I really want people to hear my voice. I am very passionate about film, I love it very much and that is one of the main reasons I want to do it. I want this video to be almost like an interview with friends and family who are willing to speak to this issue and that went through it with me and who faced the experience first hand.
I know it may bring up bad times but this video isn't to reminisce it is to share the tribulations we all had to endure to inspire anyone who may stumble upon it. I want it to be spread by everyone and it is my goal to do this by my one year anniversary of my diagnosis, January 28th because everything will have come full circle by then.
It is important to me that people hear my story and understand that everything will be okay in the end and if it is not okay, then it is not the end.
If you are willing to be in this video and answer questions and just talk openly in front of a camera please let me know. I already have some people in mind I want in it and I am hoping you are willing to help me spread this message.
Thank you and I love you all xoxo,
Wednesday, November 16, 2016
Book Nook + Cool Experience
Hello y'all today's blog is not going to be a regular book review. This time I met the author and that experience will be told in this post! Get pumped my little page turners!! Today's book is "It Gets Worse" by comedian, youtuber, all around hilarious human Shane Dawson. Yes I met him.
First of all the book is amazing. It's funny and cute and makes you feel good about yourself, which I think Shane was going for. If you have never heard of Shane you must live around a giant rock because he is a BIG deal. He has been a youtube for over 5 years (not sure exact number) and he has written 2 books, this one being his second. "It Gets Worse" is a series of essays about his life and funny or tragic real life stories he has gone through. Honestly, his life has been rough but also not gonna lie some hilarious, whacky stuff has happened to him! It made a great sequel though.
Overall, the book was amazing It definitely deserved the New York Bestsellers title If i do say so myself. Now before I tell you some of my favorite quotes from the book, I will tell you about my Meet and Great experience with Shane:
I met Shane on July 25 of this year with my friend Rachel. Her and I are big fans of him and so we bought tickets and drove 2 hours to Cincinnati Ohio to see him for about 5 seconds. We pulled up to the bookstore at around 3 o clock and the meet and great didn't start till 7. So we found our spot by the outlet and awaited our king to arrive. Between the hours of 3 and 7 we did things such as, complain, snooze, read, painting our nails, and contemplating on buying everything around us. Anyways, once the wait was over we were in group L. We got in line around 7:45 and the line ZOOMED by. Rachel made me go first because she hates me. So when I got up there heres what happend per by memory:
Shane: Hi!
*me stands like an idiot* me: are you real??
Shane: *laughs*
Me: Hi i love you! *while hugging each other
Me: Hi i love you! *while hugging each other
Shane: love you too!
Me: lets take a cool pic!
Shane: what should we do?
Me: you pick!
Shane: oh no girl Im out!!
Shane: oh no girl Im out!!
Me *laughs and turns and just makes a move and he follows*
Shane: thanks!
Me: thanks!
And that's my 10 second conversation with youtube sensation Shane Dawson. It was absolutely amazing and even though it was about 10 seconds it was the best 10 mississipis of my life. After that we left and searched for our pictures and held our precious signed books in our hands. We eventually went home and slept but meeting him was a solid time. Would totally do it over :) By the way I forgot I ate a jolly rancher earlier so you can see my blue tongue in the picture, greaaat.
Also here is a link to the vlog I made while it happened: CLICK HERE
Favorite Quotes: "So yes, it gets worse, but you know what gets better? Your tolerance for bullshit."
"It's funny how fast money can change you, even when it's invisible."
"Because that's what love is: no judgement."
Sunday, November 13, 2016
Book Nook
Hey book nerds! I am finally back with an upbeat post about novels and more fun things! Today's book is "My Life Next Door" by Huntley Fitzpatrick. It was one of those cheesy romance books, but those are my favorite kind.
This one was about a girl named Samantha who has a neat freak, crazy, politician for a mother. She also lives next door to the Garrets. A large family with messy yards and craziness happening 24/7. Then one day Jase Garret decides to climb up Sam's trellis in her room and the rest is history. It is a very cute story between the two and literally one for the books. It is also very cliche how it is the boy next door but honestly I wish I had that in my neighborhood.
I recommend if you like cute, cheesy romances like me. It is a really sweet story with a twist at the end ;)
FAVORITE CHARACTER: 1000% Jase because I love him and the way he acts is what I would personally want in someone I dated. He is sweet, caring, appreciative, and perfect. He takes care of Sam and that's what matters most.
Favorite Quotes: "This is my favorite technique too, silence so loud someone has to start talking to fill it."
"Who are these people, and why do they think their own opinions are the only right ones?"
"So what if Tim can't handle it? What if he just messes up?
We all deserve a chance not to, right?"
"The wrong people can lead you to make the wrong decisions."
"Tim, you've got to get over this 'everything's easy for everyone else' stuff. It's not true and it makes you boring."
"It doesn't go away because it's not your problem."
"She said we were rich in all the things that matter. I need to remember she's right."
"....and pretending everything's okay when it's not and just junk."
"The truth was just..... inconvenient."
This one was about a girl named Samantha who has a neat freak, crazy, politician for a mother. She also lives next door to the Garrets. A large family with messy yards and craziness happening 24/7. Then one day Jase Garret decides to climb up Sam's trellis in her room and the rest is history. It is a very cute story between the two and literally one for the books. It is also very cliche how it is the boy next door but honestly I wish I had that in my neighborhood.
I recommend if you like cute, cheesy romances like me. It is a really sweet story with a twist at the end ;)
FAVORITE CHARACTER: 1000% Jase because I love him and the way he acts is what I would personally want in someone I dated. He is sweet, caring, appreciative, and perfect. He takes care of Sam and that's what matters most.
Favorite Quotes: "This is my favorite technique too, silence so loud someone has to start talking to fill it."
"Who are these people, and why do they think their own opinions are the only right ones?"
"So what if Tim can't handle it? What if he just messes up?
We all deserve a chance not to, right?"
"The wrong people can lead you to make the wrong decisions."
"Tim, you've got to get over this 'everything's easy for everyone else' stuff. It's not true and it makes you boring."
"It doesn't go away because it's not your problem."
"She said we were rich in all the things that matter. I need to remember she's right."
"....and pretending everything's okay when it's not and just junk."
"The truth was just..... inconvenient."
Sunday, November 6, 2016
Anxiety
Anxiety sucks. It is probably one of my least favorite things about myself. I get anxious so easily about the dumbest things and I am not gonna sit and here and say I don't cause that's not true. I want this blog to be all brutal honesty because if you have met me in real life, you know that that is how I am. I am a very brutally honest person whether people like it or not. I have taken medication for anxiety and I know a lot of people do. If you feel like you are someone who might benefit from that reach out to someone and ask for help. I can not stress that enough.
Anyway, for this post I wanted to get personal with you about my experiences and how I handle anxiety. For me I get anxious over small things like, homework, misplaced things, tweaks, being unorganized, and being unprepared and those are just a few examples. With this comes anxiousness and thoughts of failure or uneasiness, My biggest physical effect anxiety has on me is stomach aches. When I am anxious my stomach beings to hurt and I feel like I am gonna throw up. It is not fun and it makes me even more anxious because I really do not want to throw up in that particular situation. Anxiety is not an joke or it'd not something people just say, it is a serious thing that can screw with peoples lives.
Anxiety does have a sidekick which is a super power that toys with your emotions and your motivation. For example, when I become anxious I will lose all motivation to do anything important and my emotions will get the better of me. I will get angry with myself and pissed off. I do not understand why this happens but it is not really something I can control. However, I can lower the anxiety levels. Here's how I deal with anxiety:
I did a lot of these exercises when I was in the hospital because I would get such bad anxiety I would start to have panic attacks. So a lot of the times I would have my sister help me breathe in and out. This is EXTREMELY important because with a panic attack you aren't breathing normally. So she would help me with that. The other big thing I would do would be mindfulness which is to attack the problem head on and realize what is happening and just understand it and breathe. It was either with breathing or a written exercise given by my psychologist. Either way it worked most of the time. Now that I am at school and by myself it is a lot harder to use these exercises so I have come up with some on my own time. These include; reading, painting, comedy tv/movie/special, and basically anything to distract me from the anxious situation. I have found out that the more I just sit there and think about the thing that is making me anxious makes the problem worse. So I have learned to take me away from the situation for awhile and do something fun or that I enjoy and come back to the problem when I am ready.
If you have anxiety don't be embarrassed, it is a common thing and just because yours might be worse than somebody else's does not mean anything! You will be okay and get through it. Also nothing is as big as it seems! Just remember to find the ways that help you handle your anxiety and do them! Even if that thing is due in 2 hours, step away and a bad grade will not effect you in the long run. The most important thing is not grades, it is your health and that should always come first. So just breathe and believe you can do it and you will.
xoxo Haley :)
Anyway, for this post I wanted to get personal with you about my experiences and how I handle anxiety. For me I get anxious over small things like, homework, misplaced things, tweaks, being unorganized, and being unprepared and those are just a few examples. With this comes anxiousness and thoughts of failure or uneasiness, My biggest physical effect anxiety has on me is stomach aches. When I am anxious my stomach beings to hurt and I feel like I am gonna throw up. It is not fun and it makes me even more anxious because I really do not want to throw up in that particular situation. Anxiety is not an joke or it'd not something people just say, it is a serious thing that can screw with peoples lives.
Anxiety does have a sidekick which is a super power that toys with your emotions and your motivation. For example, when I become anxious I will lose all motivation to do anything important and my emotions will get the better of me. I will get angry with myself and pissed off. I do not understand why this happens but it is not really something I can control. However, I can lower the anxiety levels. Here's how I deal with anxiety:
I did a lot of these exercises when I was in the hospital because I would get such bad anxiety I would start to have panic attacks. So a lot of the times I would have my sister help me breathe in and out. This is EXTREMELY important because with a panic attack you aren't breathing normally. So she would help me with that. The other big thing I would do would be mindfulness which is to attack the problem head on and realize what is happening and just understand it and breathe. It was either with breathing or a written exercise given by my psychologist. Either way it worked most of the time. Now that I am at school and by myself it is a lot harder to use these exercises so I have come up with some on my own time. These include; reading, painting, comedy tv/movie/special, and basically anything to distract me from the anxious situation. I have found out that the more I just sit there and think about the thing that is making me anxious makes the problem worse. So I have learned to take me away from the situation for awhile and do something fun or that I enjoy and come back to the problem when I am ready.
If you have anxiety don't be embarrassed, it is a common thing and just because yours might be worse than somebody else's does not mean anything! You will be okay and get through it. Also nothing is as big as it seems! Just remember to find the ways that help you handle your anxiety and do them! Even if that thing is due in 2 hours, step away and a bad grade will not effect you in the long run. The most important thing is not grades, it is your health and that should always come first. So just breathe and believe you can do it and you will.
xoxo Haley :)
Friday, October 28, 2016
Why Do You Want To Be Happy?
As you can see by the title of this I am going to try to answer the question of "Why do you want to be happy?" I was first posed this question in my philosophy. Now before I go on you must know I HATE my philosophy class, like its literally the worst. But in this one moment I happened to be paying attention and my professor posed this question to us. I then went back off in thought and pondered this question myself for multiple days now.
It is a tough question to answer and I am almost positive that there is no exact conclusion.
I wanted to actually see what others thought about this so i went to my good friend google and researched it, again this is not a school assignment, I am doing this out of genuine curiosity. Here is what I found:
Aristotle happens to be the biggest brain behind this philosophy. Were learning about him in class, and within my research Aristotle believes that happiness is only achieved with a fulfillment of conditions not only physical but mental. Aristotle says happiness consists in achieving, which I love. It seems like he is basing it off of achieving your goals and succeeding in them. I agree but I also do not. I love that it is believed believing and reaching your goals can make you happy, but I also know that things are not permanent.
For example, say your goal is to graduate college (aka my goal) and 4 years later you have a college degree hanging up on your wall. Your goal is complete you are happy, but are we ever fulfilled? I believe we aren't. As humans we are always trying to reach goals. When we finish one goal we move on to the next. It is just temporary happiness isn't it?
It seems simple when you think about it but it really isn't. Overall, I do not think anyone has the correct answer to this question, but I'm going to give it my best shot:
I want to be happy and to be able to say 'I had a great life.' I feel like if we are okay and at peace at the end of our lives that is happiness. I want to be happy because happiness is something that enlightens the soul and radiates everywhere. I want to be happy because the opposite of that is sad/depressed and that doesn't sound like something anyone wants to be. I want to be happy because why would I want to be anything else?
I am not sure If I ever will find complete happiness and I don't know if you will either. We cannot tell the future and we cannot take guesses. It sucks that the future is unknowing and it isn't something we can change either.
Overall I hope you want to be happy and I hope you find it.
xoxo :)
It is a tough question to answer and I am almost positive that there is no exact conclusion.
I wanted to actually see what others thought about this so i went to my good friend google and researched it, again this is not a school assignment, I am doing this out of genuine curiosity. Here is what I found:
Aristotle happens to be the biggest brain behind this philosophy. Were learning about him in class, and within my research Aristotle believes that happiness is only achieved with a fulfillment of conditions not only physical but mental. Aristotle says happiness consists in achieving, which I love. It seems like he is basing it off of achieving your goals and succeeding in them. I agree but I also do not. I love that it is believed believing and reaching your goals can make you happy, but I also know that things are not permanent.
For example, say your goal is to graduate college (aka my goal) and 4 years later you have a college degree hanging up on your wall. Your goal is complete you are happy, but are we ever fulfilled? I believe we aren't. As humans we are always trying to reach goals. When we finish one goal we move on to the next. It is just temporary happiness isn't it?
It seems simple when you think about it but it really isn't. Overall, I do not think anyone has the correct answer to this question, but I'm going to give it my best shot:
I want to be happy and to be able to say 'I had a great life.' I feel like if we are okay and at peace at the end of our lives that is happiness. I want to be happy because happiness is something that enlightens the soul and radiates everywhere. I want to be happy because the opposite of that is sad/depressed and that doesn't sound like something anyone wants to be. I want to be happy because why would I want to be anything else?
I am not sure If I ever will find complete happiness and I don't know if you will either. We cannot tell the future and we cannot take guesses. It sucks that the future is unknowing and it isn't something we can change either.
Overall I hope you want to be happy and I hope you find it.
xoxo :)
Tuesday, October 18, 2016
Confused
I thought for the longest time I knew what I wanted to do with my life.
My junior year of high school I was put into a class that was my last choice for my scehdule, creative writing. I didn't expect much out of the class but a couple of half-assed poems and a short story or two. However, after a few weeks sitting in a stuffy room my mind changed. I started to enjoy it. I started to believe in my writing skills and enjoy putting words on paper that mean something.
I started to think that college was coming up and that I didn't want to be that person at gradaution with 'Undecided' showing under their name, it just felt embrassing and lazy. So I started to think I kinda need to decide what I wanna study in college.
By the end of the semester I knew what I wanted. That creative writing class changed my life. It gave me the thing I've been looking for for what seemed like forever, answers. I finally decided I wanted to be a writer. This was all thanks to my awesome teacher Mrs. Roberts :) I loved how words could inspire people and I wanted to do just that, make someone believe in something.
I felt so accomplished and ready to take on college because i knew the field of study I wanted. I knew what I wanted to strive for and what I wanted to accomplish. This feeling lasted for 2 and a half years. The feeling of knowing and possibilites.
I went to college in the major of English- creative writing. I thought that was perfect because the class that made me take this was in fact a creative writing class. I thought this would be a perfect fit and I'd be on the path of success. This only lasted a month.
I started to fall out of love with writing and I lost inspiration. I felt like my light started going out and I didnt know how to reignite it. I was so confused and asked "Why do i feel this way, I love writing?!" I started questioning everything I believed for the past two and half years. I felt lost.
My nights and bursts of inspiration came to me less often and I felt pity. I didn't like this feeling. I hadn't written on my blog in forever or really journal as often. I didn't feel like me. Within my classes I felt forced to like English becasue every 5 seconds the teacher would say, "You're an English major so you have to...." blah blah blah. Everytime she brought it up I would cringe at the fact and I couldn't understand why. I love english, its always been my favorite subject even when I was growing up, so i really couldnt wrap my head around my thoughts.
I started to feel like English was no longer just MY thing. I knew it always wasn't just my fortay but somehow I believed it was always soemthing personal within me, like my own little secret garden I could escape to when feeling sad. I started to feel like people were invading that garden and killing all my flowers and plants that resembled my thoughts and opinions. I no longer felt like I had a passion for the subject and I am a passionate person, you guys know that. I did not feel like myself.
I knew something had to change, but I wasn't sure what or how to go about finding out. At first I started talking to friends in my classes that also felt the same way and planned to switch majors. I thought hey maybe I should try that. But again I was still stuck. What was I supposed to switch to? If I thought I wanted to be a writer for so long, how am I supposed to know what I want to switch to before next semester. Dont forget that the first semester is halfway over and Im running out of time.
I panicked. I didn't know who to ask or who to go to because I am the only one who knows what I truly want. I started to ask my dad and he said English teacher and I thought, maybe, but do I really want to deal with kids? I wasn't quite sure.
I think my biggest delimma was the fast I didn't know what else I liked enough to possibly make a carrer out of it. So i pushed it away, the thoughts and feelings that encompassed it. I decided to throw myself into things to get my mind of it, like painting. I started painting a lot more and then reading more books. I wanted my thoughts to float somewhere else for awhile.
Then I got an email from my academic advisor that made the thoughts come back. I had to figure it out before spring semester scheduling. After weeks of thought and serious stress, I finally decided.
Communications is the major I'll be switching to my sophomore year of college. I decided on this for many reasons:
1. It is broad, meaning it has multiple options for after graduating. It gives me more options to choose from within the college.
- Although the thing that sucks is it seems that all we think about when going into college is how is this gonna land me a job once i graduate. Instead of studying what you truly enjoy.
2. It something I was debating about earlier - Funny thing is I thought about doing this as my major going into my freshmen year anyway so in a way it kinda worked itself out.
3. I enjoy talking - This kinda speaks for itself. It is the college of communications and you can learn a lot from that and make a job out of that and speak your mind.
Overall I feel way better now as I am typing this. I feel like I see my true path up ahead on the road of life. I just happened to take a short detour that I dont at all regret. I learned a lot throughout the time I was in english and i appreicate the teachers I had. They taught me things I never expected.
I now feel inspired and better about myself then I did 2 months ago. I'm starting to feel like myself again and I feel blessed.
Do not be afraid to switch things around. It is going to be scary, but life is scary. You can't go you're whole life without taking risks, there would be no fun in that!
So challenge yourself to take a risk whether it be big or small and always remember to be yourself and be brave!
xoxo Haley
My junior year of high school I was put into a class that was my last choice for my scehdule, creative writing. I didn't expect much out of the class but a couple of half-assed poems and a short story or two. However, after a few weeks sitting in a stuffy room my mind changed. I started to enjoy it. I started to believe in my writing skills and enjoy putting words on paper that mean something.
I started to think that college was coming up and that I didn't want to be that person at gradaution with 'Undecided' showing under their name, it just felt embrassing and lazy. So I started to think I kinda need to decide what I wanna study in college.
By the end of the semester I knew what I wanted. That creative writing class changed my life. It gave me the thing I've been looking for for what seemed like forever, answers. I finally decided I wanted to be a writer. This was all thanks to my awesome teacher Mrs. Roberts :) I loved how words could inspire people and I wanted to do just that, make someone believe in something.
I felt so accomplished and ready to take on college because i knew the field of study I wanted. I knew what I wanted to strive for and what I wanted to accomplish. This feeling lasted for 2 and a half years. The feeling of knowing and possibilites.
I went to college in the major of English- creative writing. I thought that was perfect because the class that made me take this was in fact a creative writing class. I thought this would be a perfect fit and I'd be on the path of success. This only lasted a month.
I started to fall out of love with writing and I lost inspiration. I felt like my light started going out and I didnt know how to reignite it. I was so confused and asked "Why do i feel this way, I love writing?!" I started questioning everything I believed for the past two and half years. I felt lost.
My nights and bursts of inspiration came to me less often and I felt pity. I didn't like this feeling. I hadn't written on my blog in forever or really journal as often. I didn't feel like me. Within my classes I felt forced to like English becasue every 5 seconds the teacher would say, "You're an English major so you have to...." blah blah blah. Everytime she brought it up I would cringe at the fact and I couldn't understand why. I love english, its always been my favorite subject even when I was growing up, so i really couldnt wrap my head around my thoughts.
I started to feel like English was no longer just MY thing. I knew it always wasn't just my fortay but somehow I believed it was always soemthing personal within me, like my own little secret garden I could escape to when feeling sad. I started to feel like people were invading that garden and killing all my flowers and plants that resembled my thoughts and opinions. I no longer felt like I had a passion for the subject and I am a passionate person, you guys know that. I did not feel like myself.
I knew something had to change, but I wasn't sure what or how to go about finding out. At first I started talking to friends in my classes that also felt the same way and planned to switch majors. I thought hey maybe I should try that. But again I was still stuck. What was I supposed to switch to? If I thought I wanted to be a writer for so long, how am I supposed to know what I want to switch to before next semester. Dont forget that the first semester is halfway over and Im running out of time.
I panicked. I didn't know who to ask or who to go to because I am the only one who knows what I truly want. I started to ask my dad and he said English teacher and I thought, maybe, but do I really want to deal with kids? I wasn't quite sure.
I think my biggest delimma was the fast I didn't know what else I liked enough to possibly make a carrer out of it. So i pushed it away, the thoughts and feelings that encompassed it. I decided to throw myself into things to get my mind of it, like painting. I started painting a lot more and then reading more books. I wanted my thoughts to float somewhere else for awhile.
Then I got an email from my academic advisor that made the thoughts come back. I had to figure it out before spring semester scheduling. After weeks of thought and serious stress, I finally decided.
Communications is the major I'll be switching to my sophomore year of college. I decided on this for many reasons:
1. It is broad, meaning it has multiple options for after graduating. It gives me more options to choose from within the college.
- Although the thing that sucks is it seems that all we think about when going into college is how is this gonna land me a job once i graduate. Instead of studying what you truly enjoy.
2. It something I was debating about earlier - Funny thing is I thought about doing this as my major going into my freshmen year anyway so in a way it kinda worked itself out.
3. I enjoy talking - This kinda speaks for itself. It is the college of communications and you can learn a lot from that and make a job out of that and speak your mind.
Overall I feel way better now as I am typing this. I feel like I see my true path up ahead on the road of life. I just happened to take a short detour that I dont at all regret. I learned a lot throughout the time I was in english and i appreicate the teachers I had. They taught me things I never expected.
I now feel inspired and better about myself then I did 2 months ago. I'm starting to feel like myself again and I feel blessed.
Do not be afraid to switch things around. It is going to be scary, but life is scary. You can't go you're whole life without taking risks, there would be no fun in that!
So challenge yourself to take a risk whether it be big or small and always remember to be yourself and be brave!
xoxo Haley
Monday, October 17, 2016
Book Nook
You guys it seems lately I have had more time to read books and it makes me oh so very happy! This book was one of those that i couldn't and wouldn't put down. It was one of those soft romance novels that sorta are predictable, but they always have a twist. To me they truly never get old.
The book this time round is, "A Totally Awkward Love Story" by Lucy Ivison and Tom Ellen. I was very curious on why there were 2 authors but I was answered at the end of the novel, in the back of the book. Lucy and Tom happened to have been a couple in high school and now are still really good friends. So they decided to collaborate on a book and recreate their high school romance with the characters of Sam and Hannah. Lucy wrote Hannah's parts in the novel and Tom wrote Sams. I thought that it was so clever because you truly get two different perspectives on the characters, since they were written by two different people. Neat!
This book had me reading soooo fast. The chapters were on the long side, but i felt like they were over in 5 minutes. Every page had something exciting it whether it was good news or bad news for the characters. Sam and Hannah have never met until they bump into each other at a party and it feels like they found their 'lobster.' Let me explain.
Apparently Lobsters mate for life. So when they say "I found my lobster" it basically means i found the person i want to be with forever. Its ironic because i recently just finished the show Friends and phoebe, one of the characters, says that about Ross and Rachael and I'll never forget it. I thought it was so quirky and cute to have that in there as an ongoing theme.
Please pick up this book whenever and where ever you can! It is a quaint little novel filled with awkward romance that you yourself will fall in love with.
Favorite Character: This was a tough one. As i was reading i was trying to decide who i would write for this part of the blog. I decided on Hannah because she reminds me so much of myself. A nerdy girl who cares about grades, books, and if she'll ever find love. It is amazing how much i connected with her throughout the novel.
Favorite Quotes: "Maybe nothing feels that epic when you're actually living it."
"I hate it that now people are constantly expecting me to have become something. And like I'm a failure because I just haven't."
"I think loving someone because they love you is selfish, I went on. It's spineless. It's like only admitting you want someone once you know they want you."
"I miss the times when it was acceptable to like music on the charts." THIS IS SO TRUE. What happened to that??!!
"Maybe friendships actually end when neither of you has anything to say anymore."
"The bigger the obstacles, the more you're meant to be together, I reckon."
"I'm sorry I got mad. Life just feels so hard.
Sometimes it is."
"It's weird to think of my room being empty when I go. Of things getting dusty. Everyone says you shouldn't go home in the first semester because it makes you homesick. When I come back at Christmas and climb into my bed I will be different. I will have changed. It should be exciting, but it makes me scared. Like I want stasis. Everything to freeze. I don't want to forget how I feel now."
"I don't understand why parents do this. I've already let myself down -- do I really need the burden of knowing I've let someone else down too?"
"If I had no future, why should I worry about the present?"
The book this time round is, "A Totally Awkward Love Story" by Lucy Ivison and Tom Ellen. I was very curious on why there were 2 authors but I was answered at the end of the novel, in the back of the book. Lucy and Tom happened to have been a couple in high school and now are still really good friends. So they decided to collaborate on a book and recreate their high school romance with the characters of Sam and Hannah. Lucy wrote Hannah's parts in the novel and Tom wrote Sams. I thought that it was so clever because you truly get two different perspectives on the characters, since they were written by two different people. Neat!
This book had me reading soooo fast. The chapters were on the long side, but i felt like they were over in 5 minutes. Every page had something exciting it whether it was good news or bad news for the characters. Sam and Hannah have never met until they bump into each other at a party and it feels like they found their 'lobster.' Let me explain.
Apparently Lobsters mate for life. So when they say "I found my lobster" it basically means i found the person i want to be with forever. Its ironic because i recently just finished the show Friends and phoebe, one of the characters, says that about Ross and Rachael and I'll never forget it. I thought it was so quirky and cute to have that in there as an ongoing theme.
Please pick up this book whenever and where ever you can! It is a quaint little novel filled with awkward romance that you yourself will fall in love with.
Favorite Character: This was a tough one. As i was reading i was trying to decide who i would write for this part of the blog. I decided on Hannah because she reminds me so much of myself. A nerdy girl who cares about grades, books, and if she'll ever find love. It is amazing how much i connected with her throughout the novel.
Favorite Quotes: "Maybe nothing feels that epic when you're actually living it."
"I hate it that now people are constantly expecting me to have become something. And like I'm a failure because I just haven't."
"I think loving someone because they love you is selfish, I went on. It's spineless. It's like only admitting you want someone once you know they want you."
"I miss the times when it was acceptable to like music on the charts." THIS IS SO TRUE. What happened to that??!!
"Maybe friendships actually end when neither of you has anything to say anymore."
"The bigger the obstacles, the more you're meant to be together, I reckon."
"I'm sorry I got mad. Life just feels so hard.
Sometimes it is."
"It's weird to think of my room being empty when I go. Of things getting dusty. Everyone says you shouldn't go home in the first semester because it makes you homesick. When I come back at Christmas and climb into my bed I will be different. I will have changed. It should be exciting, but it makes me scared. Like I want stasis. Everything to freeze. I don't want to forget how I feel now."
"I don't understand why parents do this. I've already let myself down -- do I really need the burden of knowing I've let someone else down too?"
"If I had no future, why should I worry about the present?"
Friday, October 14, 2016
Book Nook
Guys this book has been raved about for MONTHS AND MONTHS and i finally read it! It is "Milk and Honey" by Rupi Kaur. It is such a heart wrenching book or poems. The poems are divided into 4 parts: The loving, the breaking, the hurting, and the healing. Each section is heartbreaking but also healing.
It is awesome because the author wrote these poems based on her own experience, which is so brave and courageous and I love her for that. I don't know if i could post a whole book of poems based on my worst relationship experiences.
My favorite section was probably "The Healing" because it makes the book come full circle and after all the tears the early chapters made you cry, you get to smile and realize everything is gonna be okay.
I recommend this book for anyone going through hard times and wants a friend and someone who understands what they are going through. GO GET IT!
A lot of poems are SOOOOO good i cant put them all in this post. So here is some of my favorites i decided to share with you:
"i do not want to have you
to fill the empty parts of me
i want to be full on my own
i want to be so complete
i could light a whole city
and then
i want to have you
cause the two of us combined
could set it on fire"
"i didn't leave because
i stopped loving you
i left because the longer
i stayed the less
i loved myself"
"i don't know why
i split myself open
for others knowing
sewing myself up
hurts this much
afterward"
xoxo haley
It is awesome because the author wrote these poems based on her own experience, which is so brave and courageous and I love her for that. I don't know if i could post a whole book of poems based on my worst relationship experiences.
My favorite section was probably "The Healing" because it makes the book come full circle and after all the tears the early chapters made you cry, you get to smile and realize everything is gonna be okay.
I recommend this book for anyone going through hard times and wants a friend and someone who understands what they are going through. GO GET IT!
A lot of poems are SOOOOO good i cant put them all in this post. So here is some of my favorites i decided to share with you:
"i do not want to have you
to fill the empty parts of me
i want to be full on my own
i want to be so complete
i could light a whole city
and then
i want to have you
cause the two of us combined
could set it on fire"
"i didn't leave because
i stopped loving you
i left because the longer
i stayed the less
i loved myself"
"i don't know why
i split myself open
for others knowing
sewing myself up
hurts this much
afterward"
xoxo haley
Monday, October 10, 2016
Book Nook
Hey guys I have another book for you! It is titled "Just Ella" by Margaret Peterson Haddix. It is kinda of a fairytale/typical princess book but i dont care one bit! Besides it was more about her escape from the castle then loving her life as a princess.
It was such a fast read, but a quality piece of work. Ella is an amazing character with a lot of guts ans strength! I dont have much to say about this book because it is so short, but pick it up if you want a quick read! I loved it!
Favorite Character: Mary, the servant girl because of the way she was portrayed in speech and in personality. A shy little servant girl who helped ella in every way! I loved it!
Favorite Quotes: "People would rather people in fairy godmothers, and.... and... well, divine intervention, if you will -- than to think that you took charge of your own destiny."
"Surely I hadn't had a failure of love, only a failure of imagination."
"Love is a a wondrous thing. It moves mountains and stills a baby's cries. It beats inside every human's heart, yet is more precious than gold. It cannot be bought or sold or stolen. It keeps us alive."
"And if I'd learned nothing else from my life thus far, it was that you don't always end up where you think you're going."
It was such a fast read, but a quality piece of work. Ella is an amazing character with a lot of guts ans strength! I dont have much to say about this book because it is so short, but pick it up if you want a quick read! I loved it!
Favorite Character: Mary, the servant girl because of the way she was portrayed in speech and in personality. A shy little servant girl who helped ella in every way! I loved it!
Favorite Quotes: "People would rather people in fairy godmothers, and.... and... well, divine intervention, if you will -- than to think that you took charge of your own destiny."
"Surely I hadn't had a failure of love, only a failure of imagination."
"Love is a a wondrous thing. It moves mountains and stills a baby's cries. It beats inside every human's heart, yet is more precious than gold. It cannot be bought or sold or stolen. It keeps us alive."
"And if I'd learned nothing else from my life thus far, it was that you don't always end up where you think you're going."
Thursday, October 6, 2016
An Open Letter to the Person Who Just Got Diagnosed With Cancer
Hello and let me start off by saying I am so sorry. This is the shittiest situation that could ever come upon a person and you are the one chosen by some other higher being to go through this hell.
I got diagnosed just like you back in 2016 and it sucked so bad. I'm not going to lie to you or try to make you have pity on yourself because that is not going to get you through this. Getting cancer was the worst news of my whole entire life and I am only 18. I would always see those commercials on TV about childhood cancer and say I am glad I am not them and now look at me.
No matter what I said or did I couldn't have stopped it from coming and neither could you, especially if it isn't genetic. I feel your pain and the hell you will have to endure for the next 6 months of your life. You have to put your whole life on hold just for this bitch to push its way through and take over your body.
Again I am not going to lie to you one bit because through this process you are gonna be told some brutishly harsh news that you are not going to like. For one this is going to be FAR from easy and something you are going to have to fight through no matter the trials and tribulations that come along with it.
Do not be scared of the chemo or radiation, It is all to make you get better. Yes, there are some side effects that suck really bad but its all to help you so you must push through no matter what. You will be puking a lot in the middle of the night, lose sleep and lose your hair, and getting many pokes and pricks.
Therapy is your best friend. Talk to someone, paint something, pet something, read something. Do anything that will calm you or distract you throughout all this. It will make such a big difference in whether you have a good day or a bad one.
Don't be afraid to cry it is the most natural reaction to this situation, I cried of anger and sadness. Questioning so many higher beings and asking them why was it me. So cry or punch a pillow, slap something, scream. Do anything to express how you feel even if it is destructive.
It is so scary and no one else knows what you are going through except you. Do not let all the baggage that comes with this awful disease to weigh you down. Do not let it shut out your family or friends or your normalness. Do not let it drag your personality and humor into the ground with it either, Try to be as connected with people who love you as much as possible.
On the days you want to give up (and trust me there will be plenty of them) DO NOT DO IT! I am serious they're are so many people that care and love you that if you were to just let something like this to destroy you, you will regret it.
Lastly, I may not know who you are but i know exactly what this feels like and you can contact me if you want: email: osburn.haley@yahoo.com Also i believe in you so much. I know you are going to have all the strength in the entire world to get through all this bullshit. It is just a bump in the roller coaster of life and eventually you'll be off this ride and on to a better one. Never give up on yourself ever. Every single person is rooting for you.
I love you and I will see you in 6 months cancer free. Good Luck :)
I got diagnosed just like you back in 2016 and it sucked so bad. I'm not going to lie to you or try to make you have pity on yourself because that is not going to get you through this. Getting cancer was the worst news of my whole entire life and I am only 18. I would always see those commercials on TV about childhood cancer and say I am glad I am not them and now look at me.
No matter what I said or did I couldn't have stopped it from coming and neither could you, especially if it isn't genetic. I feel your pain and the hell you will have to endure for the next 6 months of your life. You have to put your whole life on hold just for this bitch to push its way through and take over your body.
Again I am not going to lie to you one bit because through this process you are gonna be told some brutishly harsh news that you are not going to like. For one this is going to be FAR from easy and something you are going to have to fight through no matter the trials and tribulations that come along with it.
Do not be scared of the chemo or radiation, It is all to make you get better. Yes, there are some side effects that suck really bad but its all to help you so you must push through no matter what. You will be puking a lot in the middle of the night, lose sleep and lose your hair, and getting many pokes and pricks.
Therapy is your best friend. Talk to someone, paint something, pet something, read something. Do anything that will calm you or distract you throughout all this. It will make such a big difference in whether you have a good day or a bad one.
Don't be afraid to cry it is the most natural reaction to this situation, I cried of anger and sadness. Questioning so many higher beings and asking them why was it me. So cry or punch a pillow, slap something, scream. Do anything to express how you feel even if it is destructive.
It is so scary and no one else knows what you are going through except you. Do not let all the baggage that comes with this awful disease to weigh you down. Do not let it shut out your family or friends or your normalness. Do not let it drag your personality and humor into the ground with it either, Try to be as connected with people who love you as much as possible.
On the days you want to give up (and trust me there will be plenty of them) DO NOT DO IT! I am serious they're are so many people that care and love you that if you were to just let something like this to destroy you, you will regret it.
Lastly, I may not know who you are but i know exactly what this feels like and you can contact me if you want: email: osburn.haley@yahoo.com Also i believe in you so much. I know you are going to have all the strength in the entire world to get through all this bullshit. It is just a bump in the roller coaster of life and eventually you'll be off this ride and on to a better one. Never give up on yourself ever. Every single person is rooting for you.
I love you and I will see you in 6 months cancer free. Good Luck :)
Passion
Webster dictionary defines passion as "strong and barely controlable emotion."
I define passion as, something that oozes out of you causing you to become determined and fearless.
I love people who radiate passion. If you're a passionate person about whatever it is you enjoy, odds are I'm going to like you.
I am a very passionate person. When I love something I love it with every part of my being. I love reading, I love film, I love cats, I love volleyball, I love my friends, I love my family, and I love writing. These are things I am VERY passionate about.
Some of those things I am lucky enough to have in my life every single day, but others not so lucky.
It really sucks when you feel like you have something ripped away from you just because you got injured or sick or anything of the sorts and you are forced to stop. Yet others who can do those things don't have in passion in their eyes.
I swear it's one of my pet peeves. Want something with all your heart you guys. Believe in something with EVERY. SINGLE. FIBER. of your being.
It is such an incredible feeling to be passionate about something & love it so much it's all you can think, feel, dream, and talk about.
Passion is one of my favorite emotions by far. If everyone in today's world was more passionate in kind ways and beautiful ways instead of passion towards hate or violence, then the world may have been a different world then what we see right now.
We need more passion.
Believe in your passions and they will thrive
Xoxo Haley
Xoxo Haley
Friday, September 30, 2016
Book Nook
HEY GUYS! I am super excited to write this blog post because I have seen this book on tumblr and just all over the internet. It is "The Diary of an Oxygen Theif" by Anonymous. I think this interested me because it does not have a authors name! I think whoever wrote it really wanted their stories out there but he didnt want them to know it was him, if that even makes any sense? ANYWHO, it was such a good book.
Actually, If i had to use one word to describe this book itd be a heartbreak, It is about an Irish dude who likes to hurt girls. Not physically but in heart breaking. He had his heart broken once pretty badly by a girl so he decided to do it to all the girls he decides to date.
THEE the most interesting part of this novel is that the author knows you are reading the book. In many ways it is like you are having a conversation with the actual author of the novel. It is very interesting to read it when it is written in that way.
It definitely is not one of my favorite novels just because it is written in a way that is a little confusing because it goes so of course sometimes. Also there is only 3 chapters in 151 pages, so there is no easy way to pause and come back to the story. However, the book is very lovely. It may be strange and somewhat uncomfortable, the author puts you in that position and nails some of the emotions on the head. I recommend for sure!! :)
Actually, If i had to use one word to describe this book itd be a heartbreak, It is about an Irish dude who likes to hurt girls. Not physically but in heart breaking. He had his heart broken once pretty badly by a girl so he decided to do it to all the girls he decides to date.
THEE the most interesting part of this novel is that the author knows you are reading the book. In many ways it is like you are having a conversation with the actual author of the novel. It is very interesting to read it when it is written in that way.
It definitely is not one of my favorite novels just because it is written in a way that is a little confusing because it goes so of course sometimes. Also there is only 3 chapters in 151 pages, so there is no easy way to pause and come back to the story. However, the book is very lovely. It may be strange and somewhat uncomfortable, the author puts you in that position and nails some of the emotions on the head. I recommend for sure!! :)
Favorite Quotes: "Because that is what I feared most: the fact that i was losing her."
"Romance has killed more people than cancer. Okay, maybe not killed, but dulled more lives. Removed more hope, sold more medication, caused more tears."
"We are not punished for our sins, we are punished by them."
"I suppose some people would say I was suffering from a broken heart. Or you might say it's just life."
"..life is random and therefore everything that happens has no meaning or structure; it just happens or doesn't."
Friday, September 23, 2016
Book Nook
Hey everybody! New book = New blog post! Over the past couple months I have tried so hard to get into this book because its an oldie. I felt like the first time i picked it up i wasn't in the right state of mind or focused enough. So i decided to come back to it later and i finally finished it.
It is "Tender is the Night" by F. Scott Fitzgerald. My high school junior English teacher gave it to me as a gift with i appreciate so much! It is a classic book that has a lot of drama! It is actually pretty scandalous and crazy if you really focus on the text.
It is basically a crazy love rectangle between; Rosemary, Dick Diver, Nicole, and Tommy. Dick and Nicole are doctor and patient but also husband and wife. Rosemary loves Dick and Tommy loves Nicole. However, the twist is that behind the back Dick loves Rosemary and Nicole loves Tommy. Nicole almost feels held back and held down by Dick towards the end of the book and starts to have an affair with Tommy. Rosemary is young and in love with Dick and the person he is and how he looks. Dick loves her back and they have an affair. THIS PEOPLE ARE CRAZY! Also at the end the character Mary basically confesses that she loved Dick too!
I dont really know why all the characters loved Dick cause he was a cheater and liar and a secretive man. He married for money and was kinda a dick (pun intended). He is actually one of my least favorite characters in the whole book.
Not going to lie i had to take notes on this book so i didnt get lost on what was happening. There are so many characters and plots happening! Also the book has some french in it and i know i took french 3 years in high school i had no clue what they were saying, I probably shouldve looked up the words but i decided against it but if you read it dont be like me, look it up!
If you are into old time books i recommend, It definitely was not my favorite book but it had me entertained 100% and that makes a good book.
Favorite Quotes: "I used to think until you're eighteen nothing matters."
"My politeness is a trick of the heart."
"Now human respect-- you dont call a man a coward or a liar lightly, but if you spend your life sparing people's feelings and feeding their vanity, you get so you cant distinguish what should be respected in them."
"In any case you mustn't confuse a single failure with a final defeat."
"Well, you never knew exactly how much space you occupied in peoples lives."
"Excuse me. I'm not much like myself any more."
"Wanting above all to be brave and kind, he had wanted, even more than that, to be loved."
It is "Tender is the Night" by F. Scott Fitzgerald. My high school junior English teacher gave it to me as a gift with i appreciate so much! It is a classic book that has a lot of drama! It is actually pretty scandalous and crazy if you really focus on the text.
It is basically a crazy love rectangle between; Rosemary, Dick Diver, Nicole, and Tommy. Dick and Nicole are doctor and patient but also husband and wife. Rosemary loves Dick and Tommy loves Nicole. However, the twist is that behind the back Dick loves Rosemary and Nicole loves Tommy. Nicole almost feels held back and held down by Dick towards the end of the book and starts to have an affair with Tommy. Rosemary is young and in love with Dick and the person he is and how he looks. Dick loves her back and they have an affair. THIS PEOPLE ARE CRAZY! Also at the end the character Mary basically confesses that she loved Dick too!
I dont really know why all the characters loved Dick cause he was a cheater and liar and a secretive man. He married for money and was kinda a dick (pun intended). He is actually one of my least favorite characters in the whole book.
Not going to lie i had to take notes on this book so i didnt get lost on what was happening. There are so many characters and plots happening! Also the book has some french in it and i know i took french 3 years in high school i had no clue what they were saying, I probably shouldve looked up the words but i decided against it but if you read it dont be like me, look it up!
If you are into old time books i recommend, It definitely was not my favorite book but it had me entertained 100% and that makes a good book.
Favorite Quotes: "I used to think until you're eighteen nothing matters."
"My politeness is a trick of the heart."
"Now human respect-- you dont call a man a coward or a liar lightly, but if you spend your life sparing people's feelings and feeding their vanity, you get so you cant distinguish what should be respected in them."
"In any case you mustn't confuse a single failure with a final defeat."
"Well, you never knew exactly how much space you occupied in peoples lives."
"Excuse me. I'm not much like myself any more."
"Wanting above all to be brave and kind, he had wanted, even more than that, to be loved."
Thursday, September 15, 2016
Missing Home
Like i said before i am a current freshmen at Ohio University. I am currently staying on campus in Athens Ohio by myself, which happens to be an hour and some minutes away from my actual home in Columbus. This all means that i am on my own out in the world that is college. I know college isn't everyone's cup of tea or everyone's top choice, but i actually enjoy it. I enjoy the atmosphere and the aesthetic of it as well. Although college is solid i miss home.
I am not going to lie to anyone because thats not who i am. I miss home. I miss the sound of mom and dad when they would get home from work. I miss my cats the way they would snuggle up against me when i got home from school. I miss home cooked meals. I miss the way my bed feels after a long day. I miss the quietness of my own personal room. I miss everything.
I'm not trying to sound sad or depressed or anything of the sorts, but Its all true. I cant help that when im in my dorm room sometimes the walls seem to become small and i look around and truly realize im by myself. Its such a hard transition to go through, from being the baby of the family to a young adult that lives far from home.
No matter how many times i talk to my friends or parents i cant help but think about them ALL THE TIME. I guess old habits die hard?
Luckily i have one close friend on campus with me that makes me feel home, but i miss everyone else. My sister is also pretty close to me which allows me to escape for a couple of days.
No matter what i will always miss my friends and family. They believe in me in every type of way and it sucks to not have that physical support with you 24/7.
I guess that is what college is all about though, branching out and finding your new family. One you can hold just as close as you do to your other family.
I believe that i will be okay, itll just take a little more time than i figured. I just gotta get out there and find a new hobby instead of moping in my room all the time.
Dont get me wrong i love OU it is my new home i just miss the people that make me feel like im home all the time :)
xoxoxo
p.s you know who you are ;)
I am not going to lie to anyone because thats not who i am. I miss home. I miss the sound of mom and dad when they would get home from work. I miss my cats the way they would snuggle up against me when i got home from school. I miss home cooked meals. I miss the way my bed feels after a long day. I miss the quietness of my own personal room. I miss everything.
I'm not trying to sound sad or depressed or anything of the sorts, but Its all true. I cant help that when im in my dorm room sometimes the walls seem to become small and i look around and truly realize im by myself. Its such a hard transition to go through, from being the baby of the family to a young adult that lives far from home.
No matter how many times i talk to my friends or parents i cant help but think about them ALL THE TIME. I guess old habits die hard?
Luckily i have one close friend on campus with me that makes me feel home, but i miss everyone else. My sister is also pretty close to me which allows me to escape for a couple of days.
No matter what i will always miss my friends and family. They believe in me in every type of way and it sucks to not have that physical support with you 24/7.
I guess that is what college is all about though, branching out and finding your new family. One you can hold just as close as you do to your other family.
I believe that i will be okay, itll just take a little more time than i figured. I just gotta get out there and find a new hobby instead of moping in my room all the time.
Dont get me wrong i love OU it is my new home i just miss the people that make me feel like im home all the time :)
xoxoxo
p.s you know who you are ;)
Sunday, September 11, 2016
Something New
Hi everyone, i havent written in awhile because ive become a slow reader apparently. Anyway, i want to change this blog up. I dont want to just post book reviews on here anymore, i kind of want to post anything. I want to be able to just post my thoughts and feelings about any topic on here.
I have been inspired so many people to make this blog. One of them being one of my best friends, Anna. She started a blog (actually she has like 5 lol) and she thought it would be a good outlet for me. She was right. I love this blog. I love to write. I love to express my thoughts with anyone who will listen.
I also have been inspired by my other good friend Emilee Aldridge. She writes a beautiful blog on wordpress. Heres the link she is amazing: https://thewanderingcove.wordpress.com/ She writes so beautifully about topics that are important or she talks about whatever the hell she wants which is honestly my favorite. I kinda want my new blog to be like an inspiration of hers. btw thanks emilee!
So since im starting something new im going to re introduce myself because a lot has changed since i fist began my blog!
Hi im Haley im 18 years old and a freshmen at Ohio University studying English creative writing. I love to read, write, film. photograph, and be outdoors. I have 3 cats, who i love dearly and 2 sibs who i miss all the time. I live on OU campus and love being in Athens. Ive played volleyball since the 4th grade and am now currently assistant coach of the Wellston Rockets in Wellston Ohio. My aspirations are to be a published author and make a famous short movie or film. I love to be creative in many different ways such as writing or film or even painting! I love to eat and my favorite food is tacos. Ive been through a shit ton in my life but i try to stay positive and enjoy life.
I want this blog to be something someone reads and smiles or goes to when they need a little encouraging. I want this to inspire someone to maybe do the same, just like emilee inspired me. I hope that every single one of you are doing something you love and taking on life with every ounce of yourself. There is nothing else you can do in life but try to enjoy it. I want you all to believe in something whether in be words, a person, or in life. Believe with all your heart. I want you all to to dream and achieve. Dream big dreams and go after them no matter the cost. In the end you could become a better person because of it.
I love writing, its my passion and my aspiration. If i didnt i wouldnt be studying in college or you wouldnt be reading these words. I am thankful everyday for the gifts God has given and the journey i am taking. I wouldnt be the person i am today without the experiences or people i have met in my life and to those humans i am forever grateful. Thank you all and welcome to this blog and something new. :)
I have been inspired so many people to make this blog. One of them being one of my best friends, Anna. She started a blog (actually she has like 5 lol) and she thought it would be a good outlet for me. She was right. I love this blog. I love to write. I love to express my thoughts with anyone who will listen.
I also have been inspired by my other good friend Emilee Aldridge. She writes a beautiful blog on wordpress. Heres the link she is amazing: https://thewanderingcove.wordpress.com/ She writes so beautifully about topics that are important or she talks about whatever the hell she wants which is honestly my favorite. I kinda want my new blog to be like an inspiration of hers. btw thanks emilee!
So since im starting something new im going to re introduce myself because a lot has changed since i fist began my blog!
Hi im Haley im 18 years old and a freshmen at Ohio University studying English creative writing. I love to read, write, film. photograph, and be outdoors. I have 3 cats, who i love dearly and 2 sibs who i miss all the time. I live on OU campus and love being in Athens. Ive played volleyball since the 4th grade and am now currently assistant coach of the Wellston Rockets in Wellston Ohio. My aspirations are to be a published author and make a famous short movie or film. I love to be creative in many different ways such as writing or film or even painting! I love to eat and my favorite food is tacos. Ive been through a shit ton in my life but i try to stay positive and enjoy life.
I want this blog to be something someone reads and smiles or goes to when they need a little encouraging. I want this to inspire someone to maybe do the same, just like emilee inspired me. I hope that every single one of you are doing something you love and taking on life with every ounce of yourself. There is nothing else you can do in life but try to enjoy it. I want you all to believe in something whether in be words, a person, or in life. Believe with all your heart. I want you all to to dream and achieve. Dream big dreams and go after them no matter the cost. In the end you could become a better person because of it.
I love writing, its my passion and my aspiration. If i didnt i wouldnt be studying in college or you wouldnt be reading these words. I am thankful everyday for the gifts God has given and the journey i am taking. I wouldnt be the person i am today without the experiences or people i have met in my life and to those humans i am forever grateful. Thank you all and welcome to this blog and something new. :)
Sunday, August 28, 2016
Book Nook
Guys this book I finished is so good. It is definitely on my list of favorite books. It is "Delirium" by Lauren Oliver. Oliver is a genius writer let me tell you.
This book is about love being a disease and that this whole society they live in needs to be cured from it. It is such an interesting topic that I loved very much. I recommend 10 times over again. I think you all would enjoy the novel very much.
I really like the part where love is something bad but in reality it's something everyone needs in life to survive.
Favorite character: ALEX! Because he is rebellious, a believer, and loveable. I enjoy his character and what he represents. He is a hero in this novel. I love him.
This book had a lot of good quotes be prepared:
Favorite quotes: "Hearts are fragile things. That's why you have to be so careful."
"Every choice is limited, that's life."
"If you don't look too closely, it's all right, but start focusing and all smudges and mistakes become really obvious."
"Someday, even this pain will be taken away."
"A world without fear. Impossible."
"Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words can never hurt me - such bullshit."
"Everyone is asleep. They've been asleep for years. You seemed ..... awake."
"But it does not tell you this: that love will turn the whole world into something greater than itself."
"What's poetry? Ive never heard the word before, but I like the sound of it. It sounds elegant and easy, somehow, like a beautiful woman turning in a long dress."
"Love: a single word, a wispy thing, a word no bigger or longer than an edge. That's what it is: an edge; a razor. It draws up through the center of your life, cutting everything in two. Before and after. The rest of the world falls away on either side. Before and after - and during, a moment no bigger or longer than an edge."
"-- life, the relentless mechanism of existing- isn't about you."
"I know that life isn't life if you just float through it. I know that the whole point -the only point- is to find the things that matter, and hold on to them, and fight for them, and refuse to let them go."
"I'd rather die on my own terms than live on theirs."
Saturday, August 13, 2016
Book Nook
Hey guys this book was such a quick read and by one of my favorite authors, Lauren Barnholdt. It is "Two-Way Street."
This novel is a teen romance where ex couple Jordan and Courtney take a pre-planned road trip to college together full of secrets and deciding whether they will fight for each other or not.
It's such a quick read just shy of 300 pages. I loved the story behind it and the way it was written. Lauren writes each chapter either before the trip (which explains how they got together & backstory), during the trip (where they aren't so friendly), and after (which I'm not saying anything because spoilers). Anyway if you are in the mood for an easy and quick read this would be a great book to pick up or any book by Barnholdt.
Favorite Character: Jordan. I don't know what it is about me and the guy characters in books but I love them. Maybe it's because I want to have them be real or the way they are written. I don't know but Jordan just knows who he is and doesn't change I like that.
This book wasn't that quotable but I was able to find at least one I really liked.
Favorite Quotes: "I'm just saying don't turn your back on things just because you're hurting."
Happy reading and on to the next book! :)
Tuesday, August 9, 2016
Book Nook
Hey guys sorry i havent posted in awhile, ive just been super busy. Anyway i finished another book whooooo. It seems like this next completed novel took me a lot longer to finish then i thought. It was "Wild" by Cheryl Strayed. This book is about the author hiking the PCT, aka the Pacific Crest Trail. She does it for reasons that are never actually clear in the book. It was only a difficult novel in the fact it is hard to follow. For example, shed be talking about the present and where she is, then the next sentence is about her past. It goes between those two things and sometimes i got lost.
This book is about adventure and troubling times. Its about conquering your fears and facing triumphs. It was a wonderful book and an amazing, life changing story Cheryl went through. I loved how brave she was and how even though she wanted to give up several times she never did.
I recommend this book for anyone who is going or has gone through difficult times, i recommend for adventurers seeking life changing stories, and i recommend to you, the reader of my blog. Its an amazing true story thatll open your eyes to everything you could dream off.
Hey guys and there's a movie for it starring Reese Witherspoon, it's bound to be good! If you've seen it let me know! I'm sure I'll be watching it soon :) happy reading!
This book is about adventure and troubling times. Its about conquering your fears and facing triumphs. It was a wonderful book and an amazing, life changing story Cheryl went through. I loved how brave she was and how even though she wanted to give up several times she never did.
I recommend this book for anyone who is going or has gone through difficult times, i recommend for adventurers seeking life changing stories, and i recommend to you, the reader of my blog. Its an amazing true story thatll open your eyes to everything you could dream off.
Hey guys and there's a movie for it starring Reese Witherspoon, it's bound to be good! If you've seen it let me know! I'm sure I'll be watching it soon :) happy reading!
Favorite Quotes: "I would want things to be different then they were. The wanting was a wilderness and I had to find my own way out of the woods."
"Id loved books in my regular, pre-PCT life, but on the trail, theyd taken on even greater meaning. They were the world I could lose myself in when the one I was actually in became too lonely or harsh or difficult to bear."
"..the wilderness had a clarity that included me."
"I think its neat you do what you want. Not enough chicks do that, if you ask me- just tell society and their expectations to go fuck themselves. If more women did that, wed be better off."
"Maybe I was more alone than anyone in the whole wide world. Maybe that was okay."
"Grief doesnt have a face."
"Id loved books in my regular, pre-PCT life, but on the trail, theyd taken on even greater meaning. They were the world I could lose myself in when the one I was actually in became too lonely or harsh or difficult to bear."
"..the wilderness had a clarity that included me."
"I think its neat you do what you want. Not enough chicks do that, if you ask me- just tell society and their expectations to go fuck themselves. If more women did that, wed be better off."
"Maybe I was more alone than anyone in the whole wide world. Maybe that was okay."
"Grief doesnt have a face."
Wednesday, July 13, 2016
Book Nook
Hey guys it's another youtuber book because all my favs are following the newest trend and all writing them now. It's like the latest fad. Anyway he is one of my favorites and I've met him before so that's pretty sweet. It's Ricky Dillions "Follow Me."
What makes his book unique is the different challenges throughout. He places them in between every chapter with a different hashtag to use so people can all play along. It's a great way to connect with others who are reading the book too and I believe that was his goal. I really enjoyed the realness in this book and all his truth for his fans. I loved how it was relatable but still true to who he is. I liked it a lot. I know not everyone is into YouTube but the challenges are fun and you should try it if you're feeling it!
Favorite Quotes: "As Taylor Swift has taught us, haters gonna hate."
Saturday, June 25, 2016
Book Nook
Hello nerds I'm back with another book for you all. Now this book is by one of my favorite youtubers, Shane Dawson. If you dont know who he is look him up for real. Anyway, this book is about his life and funny stories that happened to him so its not everyones cup of tea, especially if you have no clue who he is.Its called "I Hate Myselfie." clever right?
BUT for those are interested, listen up. This book is HILARIOUS. It had me laughing left and right. The use of language and the way it was written was perfect. Not only did it make me laugh, it made me proud. He has come such a long way from where he was it makes my heart warm.
I know this post is short BUT GUESS WHAT?! On july 25 my friend rachel and i are meeting shane dawson in person for his second book "It Gets Worse." IM SO EXCITED i cant contain it!!
favorite quote: "what do you need to show that you and your friend care about each other? Not open communication, not acceptance of each other's flaws. No no no. You need shitty ass bracelets that are impossible to take off so you end up getting dirt, shit, and garbage all over them. Yeah, that's what friendship is."
BUT for those are interested, listen up. This book is HILARIOUS. It had me laughing left and right. The use of language and the way it was written was perfect. Not only did it make me laugh, it made me proud. He has come such a long way from where he was it makes my heart warm.
I know this post is short BUT GUESS WHAT?! On july 25 my friend rachel and i are meeting shane dawson in person for his second book "It Gets Worse." IM SO EXCITED i cant contain it!!
favorite quote: "what do you need to show that you and your friend care about each other? Not open communication, not acceptance of each other's flaws. No no no. You need shitty ass bracelets that are impossible to take off so you end up getting dirt, shit, and garbage all over them. Yeah, that's what friendship is."
Wednesday, June 15, 2016
Book Nook
Hey guys new book for you! This one is about a very serious topic, but it was a great novel! It is "It's Kind of a Funny Story" by Ned Vizzini. I have had this book on my radar for a long time. Its been one ive been anticipating to read and i was right. This book was so easy to get into by day 1 i was already 100 or so pages in.
This book is about a depressed boy named Craig and he decides he wants to die. Therefore, he decides to call a suicide hotline and they tell him to enter himself in a hospital. So he does. Thats where the rest of the story takes place.
Its a very touching story with good characters and good lessons about life. It honestly opened my eyes to that depressed situation and how hard it must be. Especially for the main character, Craig. He is 15 and just entered high school, which i can tell you from experience, is very stressful and can easily lead into depression.
However, no matter what this story is about i recommend again and again. Its a great story about overcoming and accepting your hardships and living your life on your own terms and not anyone elses.
FAV CHARACTER: Honestly this book had so many. I loved Noelle, she didnt care what people thought and talked to others without judgement and i admired that.
Fav Quotes: "Its so hard to talk when you want to kill yourself"
"The stuff adults tell you not to do is the easiest."
"I'm young, but im already screwing up my life."
"I'm done with those; regrets are an excuse for people who have failed."
"Everybody has problems. Some people just hide their crap better than others."
"Because i wasnt capable of dealing with the real world."
This book is about a depressed boy named Craig and he decides he wants to die. Therefore, he decides to call a suicide hotline and they tell him to enter himself in a hospital. So he does. Thats where the rest of the story takes place.
Its a very touching story with good characters and good lessons about life. It honestly opened my eyes to that depressed situation and how hard it must be. Especially for the main character, Craig. He is 15 and just entered high school, which i can tell you from experience, is very stressful and can easily lead into depression.
However, no matter what this story is about i recommend again and again. Its a great story about overcoming and accepting your hardships and living your life on your own terms and not anyone elses.
FAV CHARACTER: Honestly this book had so many. I loved Noelle, she didnt care what people thought and talked to others without judgement and i admired that.
Fav Quotes: "Its so hard to talk when you want to kill yourself"
"The stuff adults tell you not to do is the easiest."
"I'm young, but im already screwing up my life."
"I'm done with those; regrets are an excuse for people who have failed."
"Everybody has problems. Some people just hide their crap better than others."
"Because i wasnt capable of dealing with the real world."
Wednesday, May 18, 2016
Book Nook
Hey guys a new book review is coming right now and this one guys is a good one, trust me. It is "Me Before You" by Jojo Moyes. I first heard of this book through the movie trailer actually. It was playing on tv and i instantly was drawn in because it has the actor who plays Finnick in the hunger games and he is attractive, if i do say so myself. ANYWAY, to the actual book.
I saw that the movie is coming out June 3 soooo i OF COURSE had to read the book before i see the movie so i swung by my local barnes and noble and picked it up! It is so good let me just state that fact. However, it is a very emotional book as well, it makes you feel different things throughout the whole story.
It basically is about a boy named Will Traynor who has been paralyzed arms down and is in a wheelchair for the rest of his life. Therefore, he needs 24/7 care so Lousia, who losses her job, finds this and becomes his caregiver. At first Will is sassy and quiet and a tad rude and Lou is just trying to make money and be nice and as respectful as possible. However, the story obviously gets better and their relationship just blossoms into something special and beautiful.
I recommend this book to literally all of you. Even though it may at times become sad and tough subjects may pop up it doesnt make it any less enjoyable, its what makes it a good story.
FAVORITE CHARACTER: IM SO TORN. I love Will cause he reminds me with his attitude which i love cause sarcasm is my favorite and i enjoy using it a lot. Also i can feel his pain throughout the book and i root for him. However, i also love Lousia. She is just so cute and nice and the way the book describes her style is just so adorable. I love how she never gives up ever, its admirable.
Favorite Quote: " I always think this is the kind of place that people come back to. When they've become tired of everything else."
" Its quite hard to stay calm and understanding when you see the same faces, the same mistakes made again and again."
" I needed to tell him, silently, that things might change, grow, or fail, but life did go on."
" Clark, every single place i go to now people look at me like i dont belong."
" You only get one life. Its actually your duty to live it as fully as possible."
" I was pretty reluctant as first but it does help to know youre not alone out there."
" Sometimes, Clark, you are pretty much the only thing that makes me want to get up in the morning."
" I dont want you to miss out on all the things someone else could give to you."
I saw that the movie is coming out June 3 soooo i OF COURSE had to read the book before i see the movie so i swung by my local barnes and noble and picked it up! It is so good let me just state that fact. However, it is a very emotional book as well, it makes you feel different things throughout the whole story.
It basically is about a boy named Will Traynor who has been paralyzed arms down and is in a wheelchair for the rest of his life. Therefore, he needs 24/7 care so Lousia, who losses her job, finds this and becomes his caregiver. At first Will is sassy and quiet and a tad rude and Lou is just trying to make money and be nice and as respectful as possible. However, the story obviously gets better and their relationship just blossoms into something special and beautiful.
I recommend this book to literally all of you. Even though it may at times become sad and tough subjects may pop up it doesnt make it any less enjoyable, its what makes it a good story.
FAVORITE CHARACTER: IM SO TORN. I love Will cause he reminds me with his attitude which i love cause sarcasm is my favorite and i enjoy using it a lot. Also i can feel his pain throughout the book and i root for him. However, i also love Lousia. She is just so cute and nice and the way the book describes her style is just so adorable. I love how she never gives up ever, its admirable.
Favorite Quote: " I always think this is the kind of place that people come back to. When they've become tired of everything else."
" Its quite hard to stay calm and understanding when you see the same faces, the same mistakes made again and again."
" I needed to tell him, silently, that things might change, grow, or fail, but life did go on."
" Clark, every single place i go to now people look at me like i dont belong."
" You only get one life. Its actually your duty to live it as fully as possible."
" I was pretty reluctant as first but it does help to know youre not alone out there."
" Sometimes, Clark, you are pretty much the only thing that makes me want to get up in the morning."
" I dont want you to miss out on all the things someone else could give to you."
Friday, May 6, 2016
Book Nook
Hey everyone i have another book for you! This one is a funny, light-hearted, amazing book from one of my favorite youtubers, Grace Helbig. It is her second novel called "Grace and Style: The Art of Pretending You Have It." The title oozes hilarity.
The book is a style guide or what grace thinks style is, which in my opinion is better than what it actually is. Grace is one of my favorite people in the world. She is hilarious, beautiful, and amazing. I honestly could watch her videos over and over again without getting sick of them.
Grace is so creative in this book. I thought her diary entries in the perspective of sweatpants was PURE GENIUS. Also i loved the story that sweatpants was in it was so clever and funny. And i appreciate all the clever puns she included in that story as well.
Grace is just a brilliant writer in whatever she writes. Both of her books give me a laugh and thats all a girl could ask for. This book wasnt very quotable so i dont have any favorite quotes but you NEED this book in your life. Itll make you smile and it may teach you a thing or two about fashion.
Thanks Grace for your wonderful novel and instilling your intelligence of style on us.
By the way i reacted to this book on youtube heres the link: CLICK HERE
AND SHE FAVED A PIC OF ME ON TWITTER WITH THE BOOK... IM COOL.
The book is a style guide or what grace thinks style is, which in my opinion is better than what it actually is. Grace is one of my favorite people in the world. She is hilarious, beautiful, and amazing. I honestly could watch her videos over and over again without getting sick of them.
Grace is so creative in this book. I thought her diary entries in the perspective of sweatpants was PURE GENIUS. Also i loved the story that sweatpants was in it was so clever and funny. And i appreciate all the clever puns she included in that story as well.
Grace is just a brilliant writer in whatever she writes. Both of her books give me a laugh and thats all a girl could ask for. This book wasnt very quotable so i dont have any favorite quotes but you NEED this book in your life. Itll make you smile and it may teach you a thing or two about fashion.
Thanks Grace for your wonderful novel and instilling your intelligence of style on us.
By the way i reacted to this book on youtube heres the link: CLICK HERE
AND SHE FAVED A PIC OF ME ON TWITTER WITH THE BOOK... IM COOL.
Monday, April 25, 2016
Book Nook
Hello fellow bookies! I finished a book a couple of weeks ago actually I just haven't had a lot of time to sit down and write a post about it. However, now I have time to sit down and explain to you how good this book was!
It was the sequel to "Girl Online" by Zoey Sugg. The title is "Girl Online: On Tour" and it was really good! It tied up loose ends that the first novel leaves. However, the ending was mediocre. It kinda left me hangin in exactly how the relationship continues. Although, it does that to me and pierces my heart it was a really good book. Also its super easy to read and quick too!
I would suggest, however, for you to read the first book before this one or you may be very confused. You wouldnt know anything about the story and that may be confusing. Actually very confusing.
Sorry this post was so short i promise to try to go into more detail next book. Anyway heres my fav quotes and character!
FAVORITE CHARACTER: I still love the best friend they call wiki. He knows whats up and he is super sweet, someone i totally would be friends with in real life.
Favorite quotes: " --but i dont think you should let your choices worry too much. Youre allowed to not know what you want to do yet."
" You need to aim higher than you think youre capable of."
" I dont think i like to imagine my love as a lock. Instead, i prefer to think of it as being like the bridge were standing on-- something that connects two hearts together that otherwise would never meet."
I would suggest, however, for you to read the first book before this one or you may be very confused. You wouldnt know anything about the story and that may be confusing. Actually very confusing.
Sorry this post was so short i promise to try to go into more detail next book. Anyway heres my fav quotes and character!
FAVORITE CHARACTER: I still love the best friend they call wiki. He knows whats up and he is super sweet, someone i totally would be friends with in real life.
Favorite quotes: " --but i dont think you should let your choices worry too much. Youre allowed to not know what you want to do yet."
" You need to aim higher than you think youre capable of."
" I dont think i like to imagine my love as a lock. Instead, i prefer to think of it as being like the bridge were standing on-- something that connects two hearts together that otherwise would never meet."
Tuesday, April 5, 2016
Why Ive Been Missing..
Hey guys its me. I know i havent been writing as frequently as i used to, but my life has kinda taken a turn in the last couple of months. I dont really know how to say it to you but here goes nothing:
I have Hodgkins Cancer. That my friends is the reason i have not had time to update you on my favorites or share the wonder of a new book. I have been as you can maybe guess a little busy. I was diagnosed on January 28th so ive known for awhile and am currently in the 3rd cycle of 5 treatments.
Im not going to go into details on everything because its like rehashing harsh memories, which is incredibly depressing. Because i would say im on the ride up now rather than a spiral of misery like back in February. However, if you are interested in 'my story' then you can go to this website where my family is constantly updating on what is happening :) http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/teamhaley
Anyway, to make this post less sad and make it happy i will say everyday im getting stronger and HEY IM KILLING CANCER! I think that is something to stay positive about for sure. I believe everything will be okay in the end and if its not okay then its not the end :)
So now that you know why ive been missing i will say i still dont know how often ill be able to post on my blog with all my appointments and such. I promise i will not forget about you guys and i will try my hardest to blog every now and again but for now this is it :) I will be back dont fret my little amigos i will never forget yall.
Now enjoy these lovely pics of me with no hair xoxo - idontknow
I have Hodgkins Cancer. That my friends is the reason i have not had time to update you on my favorites or share the wonder of a new book. I have been as you can maybe guess a little busy. I was diagnosed on January 28th so ive known for awhile and am currently in the 3rd cycle of 5 treatments.
Im not going to go into details on everything because its like rehashing harsh memories, which is incredibly depressing. Because i would say im on the ride up now rather than a spiral of misery like back in February. However, if you are interested in 'my story' then you can go to this website where my family is constantly updating on what is happening :) http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/teamhaley
Anyway, to make this post less sad and make it happy i will say everyday im getting stronger and HEY IM KILLING CANCER! I think that is something to stay positive about for sure. I believe everything will be okay in the end and if its not okay then its not the end :)
So now that you know why ive been missing i will say i still dont know how often ill be able to post on my blog with all my appointments and such. I promise i will not forget about you guys and i will try my hardest to blog every now and again but for now this is it :) I will be back dont fret my little amigos i will never forget yall.
Now enjoy these lovely pics of me with no hair xoxo - idontknow
Monday, March 14, 2016
February favorites
IM SO SORRY I HAVENT POSTED IN A MONTH. I FEEL LIKE A TERRIBLE BLOGGER!!!! I hope every single one of you can forgive this poor gal! Even though March has already been a few days I still want to tell you what I loved last month.
Favorite scent: no new scents have traveled up my nose recently. So sorry on this one guys no new candles to let you in on. My blogging skills are lacking hard core this month.
Favorite random item: My family. I know they aren't technically items but they are a favorite. They have just been such a great support this past month that I have to give them credit where credit is due. Love you all you goofy goobers.
Favorite movies/TV shows: CINDERELLA REMAKE. It was so good you guys. it honestly was very good and such a classic. I loved it and I think you should all take the time to sit down and watch it. ALSO the new Netflix original Fuller House. So lighthearted and funny. Makes me miss the old show just as much.
Favorite writing piece:
Sorry this months favorites were slacking, hopefully march is better. I love you all and hope march is going swell so far. Happy almost spring! - idontknow
Favorite book: I haven't had much time to read. I've been too busy focusing on other things. So far the first half of the book I've been reading is pretty darn good. So as I continue to read the book and finish it up, I will update you all on how it turned out.
Favorite event: This month I haven't done much. But friends have visited my home and made me feel like im still human. I appreciate them with all my heart and soul. Thanks everyone!
Favorite song: SPOTIFY YOU GUYS. Check mine out that's where all my music is coming from. I have no specific song or artist this month just a cool music website that everyone should check out. its free come on guys.
Favorite Clothing item: I've been into hats recently. My favorite one this month has been "love your melon" hat. Its orange and big and so comfortable. It def wins my heart this month.
Favorite event: This month I haven't done much. But friends have visited my home and made me feel like im still human. I appreciate them with all my heart and soul. Thanks everyone!
Favorite song: SPOTIFY YOU GUYS. Check mine out that's where all my music is coming from. I have no specific song or artist this month just a cool music website that everyone should check out. its free come on guys.
Favorite Clothing item: I've been into hats recently. My favorite one this month has been "love your melon" hat. Its orange and big and so comfortable. It def wins my heart this month.
Favorite scent: no new scents have traveled up my nose recently. So sorry on this one guys no new candles to let you in on. My blogging skills are lacking hard core this month.
Favorite random item: My family. I know they aren't technically items but they are a favorite. They have just been such a great support this past month that I have to give them credit where credit is due. Love you all you goofy goobers.
Favorite movies/TV shows: CINDERELLA REMAKE. It was so good you guys. it honestly was very good and such a classic. I loved it and I think you should all take the time to sit down and watch it. ALSO the new Netflix original Fuller House. So lighthearted and funny. Makes me miss the old show just as much.
Favorite writing piece:
I refuse to say the word.
The word that caused my life to come crashing down.
The word that flipped my world upside down.
The word that gives me nightmares and the word that seems to always be in the back of my mind.
I refuse to say the word.
Because I know if I do, the word becomes reality.
Sorry this months favorites were slacking, hopefully march is better. I love you all and hope march is going swell so far. Happy almost spring! - idontknow
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