Best 'Binge' Ever

Hey guys. So I met the cutest being on the earth on October 22.
His name is Tyler Oakley and he is one of the biggest names on the Internet today..

My friends Katy, Rachel and I decided to embark on this very stressful journey.
The planning started the very beginning of the week so NOTHING and i mean NOTHING went wrong because trust me Katy and I have had our fair share of messups when it comes to meeting our favorite youtubers. But those stories are for a different time and place, they just stress me out.
Anyway, we began planning early. I was communicating with Rachel the whole week and told her our plan was to leave around 5:30 am to get there around 6 am because the bookstore opened at 8.

This is what happened:
The night before katy came over with snacks ready and an outfit set to go. She slept over so it was easy to get up early and leave as soon as possible. We went to bed and snoozed our little hearts away dreaming of tyler oakley and butterflies. HOWEVER, WE DID NOT WAKE UP TO OUR ALARMS AND WE WOKE UP AT 5:19 AM AND WE WERE SUPPOSED TO LEAVE AT 5:30. Sorry ill stop yelling but it was stressing me out hardcore. So Katy ran out of bed and plugged in her straighter and i laid there still not having a damn idea what i was going to wear to this thing.

Finally, i got up and put on a new shirt i bought, some jeans, winter boots, and my cute new brown jacket, I was set with a bag of blankets, snacks, things to entertain myself, and some ways to charge my phone. Eventually, we left the house around 6 am and luckily rachel was already there to save us spots. (thanks rachel :])

Anyway, when we got there, there were a ton of people in line but thank God rachel was in the front! It looked like we were in the first 100 people out of 500! Rachel was by herself until we got there, or at least we thought because 3 people showed up and apparently rachel made friends. There names were Nikki, Ben, and Tals. THEY WERE 8TH GRADERS BUT LOOKED OUR AGE! ANYWHO that doesnt matter they were sweet and loved tyler oakley too so we all became a squad.

After the book store finally opened everything was so orderly. I have never seen a meet and greet so orderly ill tell ya that. We walked in a line to the registers to purchase a signed copy of the book we got later that day. Purchasing the book acquired you a wristband with a number on it, indicting when you got to meet him. I got number 68. I was 68th in line to meet him, 68 guys. 

By the time we got wristband and found a spot to sit until the meetup it was only like 8:30am. The meetup started at 1 pm. We were about to sit in barnes and noble for 4 hours doing nothing but having major anxiety. Basically, all we did within the hours were going on twitter, snapchat, and talk to each other or at least try because all our friends were in school. Eventually, I succumbed to downloading solitaire on my phone to pass time and i only one once because i suck. Since rachel is in college she had a class at like 9:30 so she left in the middle of the waiting so eventually she texted me and asked if we needed anything for us when she came back. She so kindly agreed to buy us food and bring it to us as the time crept closer and closer to the meetup starting. 

Around 12:40 rachel arrived with our food and we headed up stairs because the meet and greet started in 5 minutes. Then finally it started and the first group to go were the first 50 according to the wristband number, so us 3 were in group #2.

Group 1 must have been lightening speed because all of a sudden we three were in line to meet him. Not trying to panic the line crept closer and closer to the enclosure we met him in. Katy was first, I was second and rachel went last. When katy walked in i got to stand and watch her go and i bent over and went "OH MY GOD" and i stayed like this even after katy left. I stayed like this for about a good 10 seconds when she left. 

This is how the convo went:

Tyler: *arms in hugging form* come in here!

me: *squeals and runs up and hugs him* HI OMG YOURE AWESOME

Tyler: aww whats your name?

me: haley

tyler: haley, nice to meet you! *turns to take a smiling pic*

me; wait! *holds out my hands* can we do a different pose?

Tyler: you wanna do this? *mimics my hand movement*

me: no no you pick the pose!

Tyler: oh umm lets do model pose *flashes his pose and i follow*

me: omg thank you 

*hug again and i run away crying*

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Once you meet tyler there is a table where you pick up your signed copy of the book and pick up candy because of his book cover and what not. I did that and then we all three walked down stairs not containing our excitement and not really believing what just happened to us. We saw a group of others freaking out and joined them for about 10 minutes fangirling over our photos. Then rachel had to leave for work and i had to get home. So we all split up and drove home with our bodies tingling. 

When i arrived home i took photos and just admired the signed copy i now had, Now i have two copies of his book but oh well :) Later that night i feel asleep for a good 2 hours and woke up feeling good. I just met my idol and it was a good day!

If you wanna see me react to getting his book click here: CLICK HERE

If you wanna see the meetup experience live in action click here: CLICK HERE

Have a great day guys and i hope one day you get to meet one of your idols. xoxo -idontknow

What's on My Book Self?!

Hey guys I know I'm already back with another review of another great book! This time it's from a youtuber so this one is a little more tailored towards that audience. Her name is Jenn McCallister and she wrote a book called "Really Professional Interent Person." It is mostly about her and her struggles and her dealing with her career and YouTube. Therefore, if you aren't a big fan of her or know nothing about YouTube and what it is, I would not suggest you read this book. However, I do recommend this for anyone looking for inspiration and is someone who wants to follow their dreams.

Jenn is one of the first youtubers I ever subscribed to and honestly one of my favorites. She reminds me so much of what I like to make for videos and it's great to see that someone become sosuccessful  (not to mention beautiful!) 

Anyway, the book is amazing. I love the whole way the book is set up with pictures and the book is so like smooth feeling (is that weird to say?... Probably). Also it's just a great book to inspire people to follow their dreams and to not be afraid to be 100% yourself. 

If you are looking for an inspirational piece of work, this is it. Her story may not be the most normal since it's mostly dealing with YouTube, but that doesn't mean anything because her story is a perfect example of how to overcome anything. 

I just would pick up this book at your local Barnes and nobles or Amazon. I believe Jenn deserves all the support in the world. 

Favorite Quotes: "So when i refer to O2L in later chapter, dont think i am in total denial. Well, maybe a little."

"I used all those cliches because, honestly, i thought the truth sounded even more made-up."

"When youre a normal high school senior, your schedule is basically determined for you. You have to be up at the same time every day because you have to be there by the time the bell rings. Everything else you do, whether its homework, soccer practice, and after-school job at Taco Bell-- or in my case, Youtube-- happens between the time school gets out and the time you go to sleep. Because, no matter what, the next morning you have to get up, get dressed, and get your ass to first period."

And my last quote is the letter to my future self whole chapter. The chapter and letter is obviously to long to type or id be here for hours. So, now its your turn to find out how good the letter was by picking up a copy. You wont regret it.

Write your Fears

Hey guys, I'm a curious human being and have a question for you. Have you ever wondered why I made this blog? I ovibously know the answer because well I am the writer of the blog. I'm still not sure why you guys come in here and read it, but I appericate it nonetheless.

So if you are indeed curious, like me, to know why I made this blog I'll tell you. Well first of all my friend Anna introduced me to this website because she also has a blog. I'll link her here:ANNAS BLOG Right away I wanted to join, but I was hesitant.

Obviously you know the decision I made. I made this blog because I love to write. I don't think that is a big secret to anyone. Most of my friends know this is what I want to do with my life. Not being a professional blogger, alothugh, that'd be flipping fun, but writing stuff that inspires people. However, if my blog inspires you, I don't know why but thanks anyway.

I have always been afraid to share my writing, not like this type of writing, but stuff I write when I'm really in my emotions and need to get things off my chest. Some things I write are super serious and I love it. I would called myself a fun and happy person, but I think my writing would call me by another name. I'm not the same when I write I dig deep into my emotions and how I feel. And sometimes those feelings are never publicly shown.

I think it's time for a change. I really want to share my writing. If not to the world maybe just to you all who read this blog. If anything the people who read this is who I would want to see my writing anyway (congrats to my friends who read this :)) Anyway I really do want to express my inner self on this blog, open myself to the opinions of others.

And I think that is why I've been scared. I really don't want people to hate my writing. I haven't even really showed my parents the writing I do in my free time. Especially now that I know I wanna major in writing in college I really really don't want people to dislike my work.

So right now I'm in my AP Governement class and I'm taking deep breaths. And here you go, here's some of my writing (be nice):

Monsoon 
I don't know how people drive in the rain. 
Tears pouring down your face because you can't handle the sliding of life.
You grip the wheel tight and start to lose feeling in your hands. 
Tears start to blend with the water drops on your windshield & you can't notice the difference. 
You muffle your screams because you may lose control of the car. 
Everything is moving in fast forward, except you. 

Reading is beautiful. 
It opens the mind to endless possibilities. 
You enter a completely different world. 

You are able to connect with characters and they become part of you. 
You love the feeling of turning the pages and the smell of crisp freshly printed stories. 
It's like life is awoken by the words


These words inspire us. 
They make us believe in love and life all over again. 

Books are special. 
& I hope that one day something you read inspires you to create your own story. 

That Girl 

I've never been that girl

That girl who has people automatically flock to her. 
Who has someone talking to her every moment of the day. 

That girl who is never out of a relationship. 
Who always has to show others what her and her boyfriend are doing. 

That girl who looks in the mirror and smiles as she flips her hair. 

That girl who guys will get nervous around and stutter because they think she's beautiful. 

I have never been that girl 

I have never been able to see myself as that girl. I don't know whether if it's because I can not achieve it or I was not destined to be that girl. 

That girl who is constantly talking to someone 

That girl who has so many friends she can't keep track of any of them 

I've never been that girl

I have decided maybe because I chose to never be that girl

That girl is someone I always hid from

That girl was someone I never wanted myself to become

I've never been that girl & I never will be 

& that's okay  

You don't have to be that girl. 
You can be the girl who reads books and likes to be alone every once & awhile.

i hope you guys all enjoyed and this makes you brave enough to maybe share something you have been hiding :) love you all xoxo - idontknow

What's on my Book Shelf..?

Guys check out the new title ;) I just get so bored of the book titles I have to switch it up every so often. Let me know what ya think?!

Anyway, on to the book review! Today's book is called "Leaving Time" by Jodi Picoult. Picoult wrote one of my favorite books, which was also my very first book review on this blog *sheds a tear*, "My Sisters Keeper." So since she wrote one of my fav books I wanted to see if she could write something just as good twice. Honestly, she can. This book "Leaving Time" was so interesting. I've learned so much from this mystery novel. This is a book that you want to keep reading and never put it down.

This book is about a girl named Jenna trying to reopen her mothers case of disappearance, but the catch is it's been 10 years since it happened. This book has a plot twist that I am not telling you, because that would be dumb of me. Now listen, this book has a lot of information on elephants and weird things on animals but that is okay because it is over written by the intensity of the story. Please go pick of this book or at least read something written by Jodi Picoult. She is great author and really knows how to write a story.

FAVORITE CHARACTER: honestly, I'm not sure if I have one. I liked most of the characters equally. None really stuck out to me just because there was so many I never got the chance to really learn to love one person. If any of you get the chance to read it let me know if you agree or disagree.

Favorite Quotes: "The moral of the story is that no matter how much we try, no matter how much we want it.... some stories just don't have a happy ending."

"I'm the princess in an ivory tower, except every brick is made of history, and I built this prison myself."

"I wonder if, as you get older, you stop missing people so fiercely. Maybe growing up is just focusing on what you've got, instead of what you don't."

"Rage often brings out the real person."

"Elephants don't have that hope, only the memories of this life. Maybe that's why it is easier for them to move on."

"Death is so final. So done."

"If you think about someone you've loved and lost, you are already with them. The rest is just details."

"well, because when you desperately want to believe somethings true, you can convince yourself of just about anything."

"If your life sucks completely, sometimes its easier to start over."

"I stopped trying to figure out why humans do what they do a long time ago."

"Thats all a human life is, really-- a do-over, a chance to get it right... or youll be brought be back to try again."

"A bruise is how the body remembers its been wronged."

"It is why i dont like to close my eyes, because when you do, people disappear. And if people disappear, you dont know for sure that they are coming back."

Alright be ready for the next book and until then start reading!! xoxo - idontknow

September Favorites!

Hello beautiful humans. Well as you can tell by the title that the month is over and another is arriving & it's time for favoritessssss!

Honestly, I have seen so many people do this & I feel so basic but I love it so... Enjoy. 

Favorite Book: guys my nerdness is lacking so hardcore at the moment because school has given me NO time to read. I did read that Dante & Ari discover secrets of the universe but it just isn't cutting the favs list this time. It was good but I feel like the book I'm reading now is gonna be better! So sorry guys I'll try to read more for next month!!!

Favorite Random Item: My laptop that im typing on this very minute. I got it brand new because my brother had to take his back. I love it, it is a touch screen and its so nice. I honestly couldnt live without it because of my school work and my passion of film.

Favorite Clothing Item: SWEATPANTS. Honestly, yall ive been sick for 2 weeks,,,  i actually have a sinus infection and it sucks. Therefore, i have been wearing lazy clothes 24/7. I never leave sweatpants. NEVER. Actually, i do but really they are comfy and i have been wearing them a lot this month.

Favorite Event: TAYLOR SWIFT DUH! If you didnt guess that.. well you mustve not read my last blog post, so you should hop to it. It was a changing event and i stll rewatch the videos i have on my phone. And i promise there will be a video on my youtube channel soon of my full experience i just havent had time!

Favorite Movie/Tv Show: Since i was sick netflix became my best friend. I watched some weird movies called "6 Years" & "Virgin Suicides" Both of these i dont know if i fully recommend them. They were weird and awkward. HOWEVER, i did watch If I Stay again because it got released on netflix. I BALLED during the part with her gpa tells her its okay to leave. GUYS, if you havent watched this movie please watch it.

Favorite Songs: I dont have a specific song, but if you have spotify download it and go to Jack Matthews profile and listen to his playlists. They are so amazing and peaceful. Right now im obsessed with his fall playlist because well fall is my favorite season and its happening now.

Alright guys that's it for my favorites!! If you have any ideas for what I should add to my list let me know!! Xoxo - idontknow